About my day. :P Pretty boring. There WAS a ton of stuff above this, but I deleted it 'cause I didn't feel like sharing anymore. So you're stuck with this :]
I got up at like 7 this morning, but all I did was watch some religious show about finding Jesus until 11:30. Why, I have no idea. I thought Jesus was dead. I'm athiest, so I really don't care. I went to the dollar store at 12, shopping for a present for a Christmas party I'd be going to later. <3 We did a gift exchange kind of thing. Everybody brought a gift and put them on a counter. We went around in a circle, and when it was your turn you could either pick a gift off of the counter to open or "steal" somebody elses gift. If your gift was stolen, it became your turn. This went on until the last present was taken from the counter. The gift was supposed to be under $10, so I went to the dollar tree, as suggested xD I bought seven different types of candy [the boxes, not like individual bars of candy. But like a bag of twizzlers, a bag of jolly ranchers, etc. Not the big ones, but the individual sized bags, Lol.], a pretty bag, some tissue paper, and some ribbon. So I spent $10 exactly :P I ended up with a box of popcorn, a dictionary, a thesaurus, some gum, some Certz mints, and an air horn. Which is funny because I have an air horn app on my iPod, and one day the guy who bought the present [er, presents?] and I were messing with it. We ended up pressing the button to make it go off, on full volume xD And we couldn't figure out how to make it stop, Lol. So everyone on the bus was annoyed. It was pretty great. xD But yeah, then I bought some cheetos for the party and went home. :P Showered, did my hair/make-up, etc. until 5:45. I left at 6, got there at 6:05 because he lives just down the street from me, and was then told that I was supposed to come at 6:30. I was the only one not notified of this, apparently >.> So I was kind of awkwardly sitting for 20 minutes until another guy showed up. I was really worried about Havierre half the time, because he wasn't talking and then he dissapeared. I have no idea what happened with that. Then Andrea seemed upset for a while after he got upset, and while he was gone. Then she left. But when they came back things were okay after a while. We played Halo 3, or Halo something for a while. xD I totally failed. I killed no one, Lol. Kim was just walking around massacring people, and Havierre was too when he was playing. I left at around 10:50, got home at 11. Now it's 12:30, though I have no idea how it got to be that late. But I feel sick to my stomach. x_x I haven't anything at all today except for some cheetos, but when I ate a bowl of cheerios after I got home it suddenly felt like I was gonna explode. Which is weird, because usually if I don't eat then when I finally do eat it just makes me hungrier. Anyway, I feel sick. :c
I've been listening to Evanescence for about an hour... Missing is a beautiful song. So is Hello.
I'm gonna try to go to bed now.
Tata. <3
So, I'm absolutely terrified right now.
I downloaded this thing for music, and apparently it has a chat feature on it. Some guy added me, and I just clicked accept because I always do- I don't really care, nor do I pay attention to it.
So he messaged me yesterday, and we had an okay conversation.
Same happened today. Until he said something creepy. He asked me how my day was, and I said it was fine, blah blah blah, but it wasn't like I could do much cause I was snowed in.
He said: "Me too, I'm in ____." The ____ is the town right next to where I live.
So, I was kind of freaked out, but I figured it was a coincidence. Then he says, "You're in _________, right?" _________ Is the town I live in.
I shrug it off, figuring I had my zip code or something on my profile thing. So I said something like, "Well atleast all of the snow is good for skiing" and he says, "Yeah, I wanna go snowboarding. We should go sometime" And so I freak out. I looked at his profile, and apparently he's 23. A 23 year old and a 15 year old going skiing together? NOT appropriate. Then he tells me I'm cute. Then I block/report him, but now I'm just really creeped out and I feel like someone's watching me. I'm probably just over reacting, but I'm really scared. And Kim won't answer my Skype messages, Tanner went offline, and I have nobody to talk to. :c Havierre's not on, either. I told Tanner about it before he got off, but all he said was "Lol he's probably in your attic watching your every move." Thanks, Tanner. That really helped.
I'm. So. Scared.
Help?
I downloaded this thing for music, and apparently it has a chat feature on it. Some guy added me, and I just clicked accept because I always do- I don't really care, nor do I pay attention to it.
So he messaged me yesterday, and we had an okay conversation.
Same happened today. Until he said something creepy. He asked me how my day was, and I said it was fine, blah blah blah, but it wasn't like I could do much cause I was snowed in.
He said: "Me too, I'm in ____." The ____ is the town right next to where I live.
So, I was kind of freaked out, but I figured it was a coincidence. Then he says, "You're in _________, right?" _________ Is the town I live in.
I shrug it off, figuring I had my zip code or something on my profile thing. So I said something like, "Well atleast all of the snow is good for skiing" and he says, "Yeah, I wanna go snowboarding. We should go sometime" And so I freak out. I looked at his profile, and apparently he's 23. A 23 year old and a 15 year old going skiing together? NOT appropriate. Then he tells me I'm cute. Then I block/report him, but now I'm just really creeped out and I feel like someone's watching me. I'm probably just over reacting, but I'm really scared. And Kim won't answer my Skype messages, Tanner went offline, and I have nobody to talk to. :c Havierre's not on, either. I told Tanner about it before he got off, but all he said was "Lol he's probably in your attic watching your every move." Thanks, Tanner. That really helped.
I'm. So. Scared.
Help?
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Things are going pretty great right now :) Mainly 'cause I'm in a good mood.
Everything on my laptop is unblocked! The school blocked most of the stuff, like program files and whatnot. I can go everywhere >:D
And my friends are hilarious, though sometimes hard to keep up with xD
So apparently I'm going skiing two times, to a party, and then having a massive sleepover. All maybe in the next week or two. :P Christmas party with Havierre and the gang, Skiing with Havierre and some people, and a sleepover with TOD. TOD= The order of Derp. Both of the Emmas, me, and Kim :P
The other skiing thing is with Tanner. He asked me to go skiing with him. And just him. Nobody else. So, I'm kind of freaked out. I don't know what to say, because I don't know if he means as friends or as something else, even though I asked him to homecoming and he said no and didn't even ask the girl he said he would... Then he went with our group, but not with me. So I'm kind of still hurt by that. And I really don't like him like that anymore. I mean, it was kind of an instant-kill, the way he was such a jerk to me. But we're still friends, because I absolutely cannot hold grudges or be mean to people, or say no to people x_x So we're okay. But not the same. And he hasn't mentioned it since it happened. But then he asks me to go skiing with him some time. Once in person, on the bus, then through a text.
Whaaaat?
But yeah, things are okay. xD
I dressed up like a man to go to WalGreens the other day xD Why, I have no idea. I just felt like it. Was wearing baggy, manly jeans, a random black t-shirt, a big coat, and one of those top-hat kind of things that are shorter than top-hats. Like what mafia dudes wear, Lol. And my hair was up under it. I must say, I looked very manly. Makes sense, cause I'm Andrea's hubby... xD
Lol. I love my friends.
Tata <3
Everything on my laptop is unblocked! The school blocked most of the stuff, like program files and whatnot. I can go everywhere >:D
And my friends are hilarious, though sometimes hard to keep up with xD
So apparently I'm going skiing two times, to a party, and then having a massive sleepover. All maybe in the next week or two. :P Christmas party with Havierre and the gang, Skiing with Havierre and some people, and a sleepover with TOD. TOD= The order of Derp. Both of the Emmas, me, and Kim :P
The other skiing thing is with Tanner. He asked me to go skiing with him. And just him. Nobody else. So, I'm kind of freaked out. I don't know what to say, because I don't know if he means as friends or as something else, even though I asked him to homecoming and he said no and didn't even ask the girl he said he would... Then he went with our group, but not with me. So I'm kind of still hurt by that. And I really don't like him like that anymore. I mean, it was kind of an instant-kill, the way he was such a jerk to me. But we're still friends, because I absolutely cannot hold grudges or be mean to people, or say no to people x_x So we're okay. But not the same. And he hasn't mentioned it since it happened. But then he asks me to go skiing with him some time. Once in person, on the bus, then through a text.
Whaaaat?
But yeah, things are okay. xD
I dressed up like a man to go to WalGreens the other day xD Why, I have no idea. I just felt like it. Was wearing baggy, manly jeans, a random black t-shirt, a big coat, and one of those top-hat kind of things that are shorter than top-hats. Like what mafia dudes wear, Lol. And my hair was up under it. I must say, I looked very manly. Makes sense, cause I'm Andrea's hubby... xD
Lol. I love my friends.
Tata <3
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So, Just a random update on what's going on with me.
Hoping to go see the new Harry Potter movie with Kim tomorrow :] And the Emmas, if they can come. Sleeping over at Emma the First's house on Saturday :D Way excited about that. <3
My birthday's in eleven days :> Though it's on a Monday, and nobody will be here because of Thanksgiving.. x_x Hoping to have a sleepover that weekend with Kim and my Emmas. I wanna do something with the group on Friday, because we haven't in a while and I miss them D: And it feels like we aren't as close as we used to be. :c
My tourettes have been getting REALLY bad. I'm mean like horribly bad. It's annoying the crap out of me. There's that and this weird thing that's going on with my eyes- It's like sometimes things are blurry, but like a motion blur. Like my eyes can't focus or something. It's weird. And kind of dizzying. Oh, another thing! I've been getting irritated really easily lately- like someone will do something really small, maybe not even notice they're doing it, and it'll just make me so angry. It's weird D: And I don't like ittt. But yeah. Probably side affects of the aderall... Oh well.
My laptop keeps doing this weird thing where it tells me it's on caps lock when I try to log in, but it's really not... I was spazzing like crazy. Cause it was all "Caps lock is on!" And so I pressed the caps lock button to turn it off, but I actually turned it on, and it kept telling me my password was wrong... o_o Then when I restarted it it actually WAS on caps lock.. xD
So I'ma go. Ily, blog <3 Tata.
Hoping to go see the new Harry Potter movie with Kim tomorrow :] And the Emmas, if they can come. Sleeping over at Emma the First's house on Saturday :D Way excited about that. <3
My birthday's in eleven days :> Though it's on a Monday, and nobody will be here because of Thanksgiving.. x_x Hoping to have a sleepover that weekend with Kim and my Emmas. I wanna do something with the group on Friday, because we haven't in a while and I miss them D: And it feels like we aren't as close as we used to be. :c
My tourettes have been getting REALLY bad. I'm mean like horribly bad. It's annoying the crap out of me. There's that and this weird thing that's going on with my eyes- It's like sometimes things are blurry, but like a motion blur. Like my eyes can't focus or something. It's weird. And kind of dizzying. Oh, another thing! I've been getting irritated really easily lately- like someone will do something really small, maybe not even notice they're doing it, and it'll just make me so angry. It's weird D: And I don't like ittt. But yeah. Probably side affects of the aderall... Oh well.
My laptop keeps doing this weird thing where it tells me it's on caps lock when I try to log in, but it's really not... I was spazzing like crazy. Cause it was all "Caps lock is on!" And so I pressed the caps lock button to turn it off, but I actually turned it on, and it kept telling me my password was wrong... o_o Then when I restarted it it actually WAS on caps lock.. xD
So I'ma go. Ily, blog <3 Tata.
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Okay, so two things.
One, I HATE people who always think they're so freaking perfect and that they can do anything and they're good at Everything. They think everything they do is great, when really they suck at most things and you just want to tell them off about it but you don't want to be mean... Ugh. It annoys me so much. Then they act like they're better than you, because of course everything they do is amazing so how could you catch up?
I hate those people.
So much.
SO. MUCH. You have no idea.
Another thing:
I went to the guidance office again. She thinks I'm going to commit suicide or start cutting again :/ I admit, I may have lied a little, but seriously- Why the hell would she say that? And when she asked me if I'd ever "Self-harmed" I said yeah, three years ago. And she goes all, "Oh, well that's pretty recent, don't you think?" And she said "If someone was going to commit suicide, they might write this. Are you sure it isn't a cry for help?"
I hate her, too.
I hate very few people- But those two are definitely some of them. :/
One, I HATE people who always think they're so freaking perfect and that they can do anything and they're good at Everything. They think everything they do is great, when really they suck at most things and you just want to tell them off about it but you don't want to be mean... Ugh. It annoys me so much. Then they act like they're better than you, because of course everything they do is amazing so how could you catch up?
I hate those people.
So much.
SO. MUCH. You have no idea.
Another thing:
I went to the guidance office again. She thinks I'm going to commit suicide or start cutting again :/ I admit, I may have lied a little, but seriously- Why the hell would she say that? And when she asked me if I'd ever "Self-harmed" I said yeah, three years ago. And she goes all, "Oh, well that's pretty recent, don't you think?" And she said "If someone was going to commit suicide, they might write this. Are you sure it isn't a cry for help?"
I hate her, too.
I hate very few people- But those two are definitely some of them. :/
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So, I'm really angry right now.
My stupid Creative Writing teacher sent be down to the guidance office because of this story I wrote for the class. It was a fictional story, it's not like I'm actually going to do everything I put in it. Yes, she set herself on fire. So? Do I LOOK like I'm going to kill myself, or anyone else for that matter? I'm a pretty damn happy person. I write horror, that's what I'm good at. That's just what I like to write. I'm not funny, so I suck at anything comedic or lighthearted, and I wrote a love story for the first short story assignment, so I figured I'd do something else.
Does this make Steven King a violent individual, or any horror writer out there a danger to society?
Everyone except like two people wrote about either depression, abuse, or death. But who was the only one that was sent to the guidance office, the only one that "bothered" him? Me, of course.
The woman was in a meeting with a parent when he sent me down there, so I sat there for 20 minutes before being sent back up. I didn't talk to my teacher for the rest of the class, except to tell him they sent him an email.
Apparently my story got at least one vote, which surprises me because everyone seemed weirded out by it. He didn't even read it properly- He kept stopping and asking me questions, and he read it as if he were bored and just trying to rush through it. So he ruined the whole thing, and then decided I was unstable. I'm really beginning to hate that guy. :/ I started crying, too, because I cry when I'm angry. I wasn't actually crying- I was just really teary and I had to keep wiping at my eyes to stop them from falling. I feel kind of bad for the lady at the desk, though, 'cause I'm sure I was a total bitch to her.
Aside from that, I'm actually enjoying a book we're reading for English. Usually I'm okay with them, but I don't particularly love them. Someone dies in everything we read, whether it be a book or a short story. The poetry is always depressing, though it sometimes contains death as well. We're reading The Catcher in the Rye, and I love the style it's written in.
Hah, as I was typing that she started talking about how everything we read is depressing. Apparently we'll be reading a lot of war stories. Lovely.
My birthday's in 13 days- not that anyone will be here, no one ever is. It's because of Thanksgiving. So I'm probably having a "party" the weekend after, even though I don't really want to- my mom's making me.
I wish it would hurry up and snow already, I'm getting so sick of this place and I just don't want to be here anymore. There's that, and the fact that the guidance counselor will probably call me down either sometime today or tomorrow. I really could care less- I'm not even nervous about it, I just don't feel like explaining myself to her. I kind of just want to tell her off- And my creative writing teacher. Seriously, I could put together a pretty damn good speech if I wanted to. I've been to see people like this way too many times, I'm used to it now. Back at my middle school they thought I'd either kill myself or bomb the school, and I guess they do here too, now.
I'm gonna go now, this stupid girl next to me keeps caughing REALLY loudly, and she's doing it on purpose because she's laughing about it with her friend behind us. Ugh. I really don't like her. The girl on my other side used to be really nice to me, and we talked a lot. We were friends I guess. She never says anything to me anymore, so I guess that's gone.
Yeah. So, I'm done.
My stupid Creative Writing teacher sent be down to the guidance office because of this story I wrote for the class. It was a fictional story, it's not like I'm actually going to do everything I put in it. Yes, she set herself on fire. So? Do I LOOK like I'm going to kill myself, or anyone else for that matter? I'm a pretty damn happy person. I write horror, that's what I'm good at. That's just what I like to write. I'm not funny, so I suck at anything comedic or lighthearted, and I wrote a love story for the first short story assignment, so I figured I'd do something else.
Does this make Steven King a violent individual, or any horror writer out there a danger to society?
Everyone except like two people wrote about either depression, abuse, or death. But who was the only one that was sent to the guidance office, the only one that "bothered" him? Me, of course.
The woman was in a meeting with a parent when he sent me down there, so I sat there for 20 minutes before being sent back up. I didn't talk to my teacher for the rest of the class, except to tell him they sent him an email.
Apparently my story got at least one vote, which surprises me because everyone seemed weirded out by it. He didn't even read it properly- He kept stopping and asking me questions, and he read it as if he were bored and just trying to rush through it. So he ruined the whole thing, and then decided I was unstable. I'm really beginning to hate that guy. :/ I started crying, too, because I cry when I'm angry. I wasn't actually crying- I was just really teary and I had to keep wiping at my eyes to stop them from falling. I feel kind of bad for the lady at the desk, though, 'cause I'm sure I was a total bitch to her.
Aside from that, I'm actually enjoying a book we're reading for English. Usually I'm okay with them, but I don't particularly love them. Someone dies in everything we read, whether it be a book or a short story. The poetry is always depressing, though it sometimes contains death as well. We're reading The Catcher in the Rye, and I love the style it's written in.
Hah, as I was typing that she started talking about how everything we read is depressing. Apparently we'll be reading a lot of war stories. Lovely.
My birthday's in 13 days- not that anyone will be here, no one ever is. It's because of Thanksgiving. So I'm probably having a "party" the weekend after, even though I don't really want to- my mom's making me.
I wish it would hurry up and snow already, I'm getting so sick of this place and I just don't want to be here anymore. There's that, and the fact that the guidance counselor will probably call me down either sometime today or tomorrow. I really could care less- I'm not even nervous about it, I just don't feel like explaining myself to her. I kind of just want to tell her off- And my creative writing teacher. Seriously, I could put together a pretty damn good speech if I wanted to. I've been to see people like this way too many times, I'm used to it now. Back at my middle school they thought I'd either kill myself or bomb the school, and I guess they do here too, now.
I'm gonna go now, this stupid girl next to me keeps caughing REALLY loudly, and she's doing it on purpose because she's laughing about it with her friend behind us. Ugh. I really don't like her. The girl on my other side used to be really nice to me, and we talked a lot. We were friends I guess. She never says anything to me anymore, so I guess that's gone.
Yeah. So, I'm done.
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So. I'm actually in a really good mood, but I'm going to rant about a few things :]
For one, people don't seem to know what tourettes is. Yes, that's how it's spelled. No, we don't just randomly shout things. Yes, I have it. It bothers me that people always talk about tourettes like it's some kind of strange disease that makes you scream a lot. No. -_- There are verbal tics, then there are physical tics. You must have at least 2 physical and 1 verbal to have tourettes. A verbal tic could be something as small as making a little noise with your throat, or humming, or clearing your throat. Very few people with tourettes actually scream like that. Me? I make a small noise with my throat that's barely noticable.
Tics are things that we can't help doing, and the more we supress them the more we have the urge to do it. It's not like, "Oh, I feel one coming!" It just happens. Mine: I do this weird nose twitchy thing sometimes... The other one's just kind of creepy, so I'm not going in to that. Not like, weird creepy, but like "o_o That's... Odd." creepy. Hard to explain. Another thing!
I was asking my friend if this story I wrote was PG or not, and all she did was make fun of it as she read it. "LOL, did she have sex with him or something?" No. No, she did not. That's all she did- nothing about "Oh, I like that part" or "Eh, that sentence needs a little work". All she did was make fun of it. So that hurt. A lot. I have to read it to the class on Monday and now all I want to do is trash the whole thing and take a zero... Thanks, Kim.
So, it's To Write Love On Her Arms day. I have it all over my arms, Lol.
Gonna go nooow.
For one, people don't seem to know what tourettes is. Yes, that's how it's spelled. No, we don't just randomly shout things. Yes, I have it. It bothers me that people always talk about tourettes like it's some kind of strange disease that makes you scream a lot. No. -_- There are verbal tics, then there are physical tics. You must have at least 2 physical and 1 verbal to have tourettes. A verbal tic could be something as small as making a little noise with your throat, or humming, or clearing your throat. Very few people with tourettes actually scream like that. Me? I make a small noise with my throat that's barely noticable.
Tics are things that we can't help doing, and the more we supress them the more we have the urge to do it. It's not like, "Oh, I feel one coming!" It just happens. Mine: I do this weird nose twitchy thing sometimes... The other one's just kind of creepy, so I'm not going in to that. Not like, weird creepy, but like "o_o That's... Odd." creepy. Hard to explain. Another thing!
I was asking my friend if this story I wrote was PG or not, and all she did was make fun of it as she read it. "LOL, did she have sex with him or something?" No. No, she did not. That's all she did- nothing about "Oh, I like that part" or "Eh, that sentence needs a little work". All she did was make fun of it. So that hurt. A lot. I have to read it to the class on Monday and now all I want to do is trash the whole thing and take a zero... Thanks, Kim.
So, it's To Write Love On Her Arms day. I have it all over my arms, Lol.
Gonna go nooow.
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And so I fall
With this last breath
Frail and weak,
On wings of death
We're dying, slowly
In the night
Could I ever win this fight?
My strength is leaving, my sense is gone
Knocked over by opponents, a poorly placed pawn
If I told you I was yours, would you take me home?
Anything to feel like I'm not alone.
Just wrote that after I titled this. Random.
Really annoyed right now. I just got home from the homecoming game, though I left at half time and I got home at 11, after getting there at 7... The power went out, so we went to the college for the game. Apparently it was cold. I wasn't, or atleast I didn't feel like it- I can tell now that I was, after thawing out in front of my heater. I had to walk/run a lot because there was a lot of traffic and Amelia's mom, the one that was supposed to drive us, couldn't get over to the highschool, or all the way over to the stadium. So we walked and ran a lot, because my friends are hyper.
I seriously almost passed out. My legs were wobbling when I was standing in the line to get a drink, and I was kind of afraid I'd fall over. Not because I'm fat and can't walk a lot, but because I didn't have the energy. I've been pretty much starving myself for two weeks to fit in this damn dress for this stupid dance I might not even go to because my parents are jerks. My mom called me a brat because I wanted to go home in 40 degree weather at 11 o'clock and I interrupted her TV show.
F.M.L.
And my friend was annoying the heck out of me. She was screaming in my ear while I was on the phone with my mom, which just made her even more pissed off at me. I was really worried about my other friend because she has asthma and was pretty much gasping for breath, and she kept caughing and it was scaring the heck out of me... Then she was all shiver-y and she wouldn't take my hoodie. I hope she's okay, I think she stayed after I left.
So now I'm sitting here, tired and upset and about to fall over. And I can't eat anything. And I REALLY want to eat something. I eat when I'm upset :/ I'm gonna try to sleep so that I don't have to think anymore. Goodnight, Blog.
Hope your feeling better than I am right now.
With this last breath
Frail and weak,
On wings of death
We're dying, slowly
In the night
Could I ever win this fight?
My strength is leaving, my sense is gone
Knocked over by opponents, a poorly placed pawn
If I told you I was yours, would you take me home?
Anything to feel like I'm not alone.
Just wrote that after I titled this. Random.
Really annoyed right now. I just got home from the homecoming game, though I left at half time and I got home at 11, after getting there at 7... The power went out, so we went to the college for the game. Apparently it was cold. I wasn't, or atleast I didn't feel like it- I can tell now that I was, after thawing out in front of my heater. I had to walk/run a lot because there was a lot of traffic and Amelia's mom, the one that was supposed to drive us, couldn't get over to the highschool, or all the way over to the stadium. So we walked and ran a lot, because my friends are hyper.
I seriously almost passed out. My legs were wobbling when I was standing in the line to get a drink, and I was kind of afraid I'd fall over. Not because I'm fat and can't walk a lot, but because I didn't have the energy. I've been pretty much starving myself for two weeks to fit in this damn dress for this stupid dance I might not even go to because my parents are jerks. My mom called me a brat because I wanted to go home in 40 degree weather at 11 o'clock and I interrupted her TV show.
F.M.L.
And my friend was annoying the heck out of me. She was screaming in my ear while I was on the phone with my mom, which just made her even more pissed off at me. I was really worried about my other friend because she has asthma and was pretty much gasping for breath, and she kept caughing and it was scaring the heck out of me... Then she was all shiver-y and she wouldn't take my hoodie. I hope she's okay, I think she stayed after I left.
So now I'm sitting here, tired and upset and about to fall over. And I can't eat anything. And I REALLY want to eat something. I eat when I'm upset :/ I'm gonna try to sleep so that I don't have to think anymore. Goodnight, Blog.
Hope your feeling better than I am right now.
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So. A lot of stuff's been going on lately, almost none of which I can tell you.
For one thing I kind of tumbled down a hill [barely, it was like 5 feet] but it still hurt like hell because I landed on a bunch of rocks and now have scratches and bruises all over my body, and the worst headache EVER.
Homecoming dress doesn't fit, I get to starve myself until Saturday.
Woo.
I've become addicted to Twitter, but I get annoyed with it because I wake up to like, 1,000 tweets- not joking. This morning it was around 900.
The only things I'm looking forward to right now?
My birthday, Christmas, whenever I don't have school, and the BVB concert in VA. Oh, and Halloween, cause I get to dye my hair blue, do full out BVB war paint, and dress up like an Andy/Jinxx/Ashley stalker. <33 And I'm making BVB scarecrows/pumpkins. SO looking forward to the scarecrows, that'll be awesome- all leather, war paint, and creepy smiles. Wish I could buy BVB necklaces for all of them, but I don't have the money for that, Lol. I dunno where I'm getting all that leather, but I'll find a way... xD They may end up wearing random black clothes I have.
Btw, finally decided on official hair plan.
Base color: Blue, but not bright blue. Kind of like a sea blue. Then it'll have black under the bangs and in the front, like how Audrey Kitchins used to be. Then I'll have some jade green streaks in the front, and keep it curly, but not too curly. Fix my bangs, and we're good.
I've been spazzing for about half an hour because I can't find this girls shirt, and I really need to give it back to her x_x It's in my room somewhere, but I don't know where. Watch it be somewhere obvious, like on a chair or my bed. Maybe in my bathroom. I dunno. I just know it's not in my purse, where it should be x_x She's gonna get pissed at me... D: Agh.
Found my giant stash of exacto blades, I thought I lost those o_o I have like twenty of them scattered on my bed under my stuff, so I'm gonna wake up some day with exacto blades in me. But that's okay, I guess.
Found a book I read a bajillion years ago, Shiver. I don't even remember what it's about, just that I liked it xD Gonna read it again. You know what book I really miss? Blood and Chocolate. It was AWESOME.
I REMEBER WHAT IT'S ABOUT NOW. AND I WANNA READ IT BADLY.
But I must find her shirt :c Fml.
I've been writing a lot of poetry lately. Apparently adderall makes me better at writing o_o In my opinion. My mom likes my old poetry, but my creative writing class pretty much hated that. I wonder how I'll do now? I had to write a short story about a teacher/mentor-student relationship. It was so freaking random. I could think of nothing, so it's about a girl named Nikki who's an artist. Nikki is pretty much patterned after me, or who I wish I was. Except the hair has changed, so she's a LITTLE off.
I've been listening to a lot of stuff lately... Mostly:
-Black Veil Brides
-Get Scared
-Bless The Fall
-William Control
Woo. I love them all <3 Saw William Control when I went to see BVB. :]
I don't want to sleep tonight. I know I will, but I don't want to. Lately I've been having a lot of "I wish I had someone like that." moments. Someone to hold MY hand through something scary, someone to cuddle with ME when I'm cold... Someone that would make me forget and believe that, just for a little while, I was okay.
I guess that someone doesn't exist, though, do they? Or at least they're very far away.
And so I will continue to mentally date half the members of BVB.
La la la. :P
Getting annoyed with pretty people, just because I'm not. Jealousy? Not really. I don't even know.
This: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z2DaOdSJbYA
Epic song.
That was one of Vince and I's songs.
Others: Heartbreak Warfare, Whaddaya Want From Me, and another song I can't remember. I'm such a wonderful ex, right?
You have no idea how much Whaddaya Want From Me by Adam Lambert related to Vince. I could disect the whole song and every single line would fit perfectly. That was our "Official" song, I guess. There was a lot of shit that went on with us, though. It's kind of sad that he's back with Dameon, though. He's such a whore. I was kind of glad to see Vince go for the last time, but at the same time it tore me in half. It meant I didn't have anything to look forward to when I came home, or anyone to share all of my secrets with. He knew things none of my friends now know, or ever will know. I wish we were at least still friends. He said we would be, but we kind of fell out of contact.
I've started to talk to Tara again, I missed her like hell. She made me realize a lot of things, which I won't share with you just yet. Two people know already, but that's it.
Trying to think of other things to put in here...
Oh. Corset shopping is extremely hard.
That's all I'll say about that... After three hours of Google and eBay. I'm ready to rip my hair out.
I'm getting kind of annoyed with the world. The only guys who seem like the kind of guy I want are on the internet, not in North Carolina.
Feeling kind of pathetic right now, I don't know why. Listening to Bless The Fall on repeat and stalking Twitter...
URGH. I can't find the cord for my camera... It's the thing that gets my picture onto my laptop. D: So I STILL have no profile picture for my Twitter, or a good one for my FB. Blahhh. I have no idea what I did with that thing... I haven't seen it in probably over a month. No doubt it's on my bed somewhere.
My bed is divided in half by a really long cylindrical pillow, one half being where I sleep and the other half being my crap pile. I put everything I use a lot or need to remember over there, so that it's within reach, because I'm too lazy to get up in the middle of the night to go get stuff. It's not even my bed, it's my futon, or however you spell that.
I just realized I lost a follower on Twitter. Sad. :c I went from 45 to 44. Daww.
I'm gonna go on an epic hunt for shit I'm missing. I'll probably end up blogging again since I have absolutely nothing to do at 1:30 in the morning. Woo. Bye.
For one thing I kind of tumbled down a hill [barely, it was like 5 feet] but it still hurt like hell because I landed on a bunch of rocks and now have scratches and bruises all over my body, and the worst headache EVER.
Homecoming dress doesn't fit, I get to starve myself until Saturday.
Woo.
I've become addicted to Twitter, but I get annoyed with it because I wake up to like, 1,000 tweets- not joking. This morning it was around 900.
The only things I'm looking forward to right now?
My birthday, Christmas, whenever I don't have school, and the BVB concert in VA. Oh, and Halloween, cause I get to dye my hair blue, do full out BVB war paint, and dress up like an Andy/Jinxx/Ashley stalker. <33 And I'm making BVB scarecrows/pumpkins. SO looking forward to the scarecrows, that'll be awesome- all leather, war paint, and creepy smiles. Wish I could buy BVB necklaces for all of them, but I don't have the money for that, Lol. I dunno where I'm getting all that leather, but I'll find a way... xD They may end up wearing random black clothes I have.
Btw, finally decided on official hair plan.
Base color: Blue, but not bright blue. Kind of like a sea blue. Then it'll have black under the bangs and in the front, like how Audrey Kitchins used to be. Then I'll have some jade green streaks in the front, and keep it curly, but not too curly. Fix my bangs, and we're good.
I've been spazzing for about half an hour because I can't find this girls shirt, and I really need to give it back to her x_x It's in my room somewhere, but I don't know where. Watch it be somewhere obvious, like on a chair or my bed. Maybe in my bathroom. I dunno. I just know it's not in my purse, where it should be x_x She's gonna get pissed at me... D: Agh.
Found my giant stash of exacto blades, I thought I lost those o_o I have like twenty of them scattered on my bed under my stuff, so I'm gonna wake up some day with exacto blades in me. But that's okay, I guess.
Found a book I read a bajillion years ago, Shiver. I don't even remember what it's about, just that I liked it xD Gonna read it again. You know what book I really miss? Blood and Chocolate. It was AWESOME.
I REMEBER WHAT IT'S ABOUT NOW. AND I WANNA READ IT BADLY.
But I must find her shirt :c Fml.
I've been writing a lot of poetry lately. Apparently adderall makes me better at writing o_o In my opinion. My mom likes my old poetry, but my creative writing class pretty much hated that. I wonder how I'll do now? I had to write a short story about a teacher/mentor-student relationship. It was so freaking random. I could think of nothing, so it's about a girl named Nikki who's an artist. Nikki is pretty much patterned after me, or who I wish I was. Except the hair has changed, so she's a LITTLE off.
I've been listening to a lot of stuff lately... Mostly:
-Black Veil Brides
-Get Scared
-Bless The Fall
-William Control
Woo. I love them all <3 Saw William Control when I went to see BVB. :]
I don't want to sleep tonight. I know I will, but I don't want to. Lately I've been having a lot of "I wish I had someone like that." moments. Someone to hold MY hand through something scary, someone to cuddle with ME when I'm cold... Someone that would make me forget and believe that, just for a little while, I was okay.
I guess that someone doesn't exist, though, do they? Or at least they're very far away.
And so I will continue to mentally date half the members of BVB.
La la la. :P
Getting annoyed with pretty people, just because I'm not. Jealousy? Not really. I don't even know.
This: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z2DaOdSJbYA
Epic song.
That was one of Vince and I's songs.
Others: Heartbreak Warfare, Whaddaya Want From Me, and another song I can't remember. I'm such a wonderful ex, right?
You have no idea how much Whaddaya Want From Me by Adam Lambert related to Vince. I could disect the whole song and every single line would fit perfectly. That was our "Official" song, I guess. There was a lot of shit that went on with us, though. It's kind of sad that he's back with Dameon, though. He's such a whore. I was kind of glad to see Vince go for the last time, but at the same time it tore me in half. It meant I didn't have anything to look forward to when I came home, or anyone to share all of my secrets with. He knew things none of my friends now know, or ever will know. I wish we were at least still friends. He said we would be, but we kind of fell out of contact.
I've started to talk to Tara again, I missed her like hell. She made me realize a lot of things, which I won't share with you just yet. Two people know already, but that's it.
Trying to think of other things to put in here...
Oh. Corset shopping is extremely hard.
That's all I'll say about that... After three hours of Google and eBay. I'm ready to rip my hair out.
I'm getting kind of annoyed with the world. The only guys who seem like the kind of guy I want are on the internet, not in North Carolina.
Feeling kind of pathetic right now, I don't know why. Listening to Bless The Fall on repeat and stalking Twitter...
URGH. I can't find the cord for my camera... It's the thing that gets my picture onto my laptop. D: So I STILL have no profile picture for my Twitter, or a good one for my FB. Blahhh. I have no idea what I did with that thing... I haven't seen it in probably over a month. No doubt it's on my bed somewhere.
My bed is divided in half by a really long cylindrical pillow, one half being where I sleep and the other half being my crap pile. I put everything I use a lot or need to remember over there, so that it's within reach, because I'm too lazy to get up in the middle of the night to go get stuff. It's not even my bed, it's my futon, or however you spell that.
I just realized I lost a follower on Twitter. Sad. :c I went from 45 to 44. Daww.
I'm gonna go on an epic hunt for shit I'm missing. I'll probably end up blogging again since I have absolutely nothing to do at 1:30 in the morning. Woo. Bye.
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So. My amazing weekend has not been amazing so far.
I went to a football game, since I go to all of them, and was so excited- there was a dance after it, too. But none of my friends care about/have time for me, I guess. Nobody even said hi to me- I got a hug from Andrea, but I had to ask for that. It just kind of feels like they don't want me there, they'd rather just be by themselves. So I left early, because it got me in a bad mood. Like really bad.
And then Kim made me feel stupid for getting upset over it. She was the only one that actually talked to me. Havierre asked if I was okay when we told them all we were leaving, but that was about it.
One of the people I absolutely can't stand that used to be in our "Group" was there, too. I guess everyone else still considers him a part- but I don't. Joseph. I really don't like him, he's pretty mean to me, and he always has been. Logan won't even look at me- If I scream HI at him in the hallway, he turns his head away. Jerk.
I don't know why, but it feels like my friends have been ignoring me all week. Before school, at lunch, after school, in the hallways, whenever we do things... The only people that talk to me daily: Kim, Amelia, and Savannah. Daniell talks to me if it's convient for her. Jessy's nice, but we're not good friends. Other people just hug me and then don't say a word to me for the rest of the day. India has declared me her "Baby Boo", Lol.
So yeah. Just feels like they don't want me anymore. I'll probably get yelled at or talked to about this post, but I'm okay with that.
Going to see BVB tomorrow, one of the highlights of my life. Excited <3
That's all, I guess.
Tata.
I went to a football game, since I go to all of them, and was so excited- there was a dance after it, too. But none of my friends care about/have time for me, I guess. Nobody even said hi to me- I got a hug from Andrea, but I had to ask for that. It just kind of feels like they don't want me there, they'd rather just be by themselves. So I left early, because it got me in a bad mood. Like really bad.
And then Kim made me feel stupid for getting upset over it. She was the only one that actually talked to me. Havierre asked if I was okay when we told them all we were leaving, but that was about it.
One of the people I absolutely can't stand that used to be in our "Group" was there, too. I guess everyone else still considers him a part- but I don't. Joseph. I really don't like him, he's pretty mean to me, and he always has been. Logan won't even look at me- If I scream HI at him in the hallway, he turns his head away. Jerk.
I don't know why, but it feels like my friends have been ignoring me all week. Before school, at lunch, after school, in the hallways, whenever we do things... The only people that talk to me daily: Kim, Amelia, and Savannah. Daniell talks to me if it's convient for her. Jessy's nice, but we're not good friends. Other people just hug me and then don't say a word to me for the rest of the day. India has declared me her "Baby Boo", Lol.
So yeah. Just feels like they don't want me anymore. I'll probably get yelled at or talked to about this post, but I'm okay with that.
Going to see BVB tomorrow, one of the highlights of my life. Excited <3
That's all, I guess.
Tata.
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Back to sad things. Yeah, sorry.
Family's fighting a lot- Becaused of this, I'm ordering my homecoming dress TOMORROW- 11 days until it has to be here. It usually takes up to 8 weeks for them to ship. FML. I hate my brother.
His girlfriend, who's actually nice, broke up with him, my parents are supposedly "kicking him out", like a million times before- but they won't. They never do.
One of my friends is ignoring me [Not you, Havierre.]
I have homework to do, and I have to get up at 4:30 to measure for this damn dress. My dad's just think on the shoes. What, do I go barefoot?
It's not my fault they've waited three weeks! I've been asking for a month. "We'll talk about it tonight." -Three hours later- "It's too late, tomorrow." And repeat.
"Actually, that dress is too expensive, now that you've waited two weeks. Find another!"
One week later.
"We'll order it tonight, I promise." "It's too late- in the morning."
Repeat.
Repeat.
Repeat.
Ughhh.
Nobody has time for me because of my brother- He's doing drugs, getting drunk, stealing the car, not coming home, ditching his girlfriend, wasting our money, etc.
Gonna go sleep or something now. :c
Family's fighting a lot- Becaused of this, I'm ordering my homecoming dress TOMORROW- 11 days until it has to be here. It usually takes up to 8 weeks for them to ship. FML. I hate my brother.
His girlfriend, who's actually nice, broke up with him, my parents are supposedly "kicking him out", like a million times before- but they won't. They never do.
One of my friends is ignoring me [Not you, Havierre.]
I have homework to do, and I have to get up at 4:30 to measure for this damn dress. My dad's just think on the shoes. What, do I go barefoot?
It's not my fault they've waited three weeks! I've been asking for a month. "We'll talk about it tonight." -Three hours later- "It's too late, tomorrow." And repeat.
"Actually, that dress is too expensive, now that you've waited two weeks. Find another!"
One week later.
"We'll order it tonight, I promise." "It's too late- in the morning."
Repeat.
Repeat.
Repeat.
Ughhh.
Nobody has time for me because of my brother- He's doing drugs, getting drunk, stealing the car, not coming home, ditching his girlfriend, wasting our money, etc.
Gonna go sleep or something now. :c
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Kay. So, I'm in health class nowww. Hate it. :c Least favorite class ever. There's a cute guy sitting next to me, though, and he keeps accidentally touching my leg o_o Awkwarddd.
But yeah.
So, I know some of my friends have been worried about me lately- don't. I'm finnne. :c Considering not posting bad things in my blog now, because it worries people.
So, went out to dinner last night with my friends, Kim and Emma. I WENT TO THE MOST AMAZING PLACE EVER. It's called the New China Buffet. Oooohmygosh <33 xD It's so wonderful. Out of the four flavors they have, they have my favorite icecream flavor EVER. Cotton Candy <3 Not a very common flavor, either. They have tasty little cakey rolls, duck [sounds icky, but it's amazing], Egg rolls, Jello, EVERYTHING. I love it so much! And it's only $9 :o Ahhh. I'm going there for my birthday, Lol. I could eat my weight in their food. <3 But I won't, cause fatness is baddd.
OHHH. I'm sad. :c I had to write a poem for Creative Writing class, titled Dreams and about dreams. So I did. I showed Devin, he liked it. My mom liked it. Savannah liked it. I got the lowest score DDD: AGGHHH. Makes me sad. I worked really hard on it, too! I was rated a 38/100. FML.
And I really have a craving for peeps... I dunno. I do.
My hair is annoying me, I want it blonder now. o_o Dunno if I should do it or not.
AHH. HOMECOMING'S IN 18 DAYS. AHHH. I have to order my dress/shoes today. x__x This is what I'm wearing:
http://www.cbslimited.com/mori-lee-prom-dress-9099.htm In blue, scroll down
http://www.cbslimited.com/silver-shoes-189%20Princess.htm
I'm excited :] Apparently one of my friends nominated me for the homecoming court. Man, I hope I get on it! o_o I would loooove that. I nominated Devin and Andrea, my favorite people ever <33 And Kim and Amelia, but I didn't think to nominate them- I thought it had to be a couple. D: My advisory teacher didn't know, so I didn't know.
Apparently they spelled our school name wrong on our student IDs. FAILL! Lol. They didn't give me one- they said they didn't have one for me, even though I took the picture for it. o_o And, I haven't gotten my school pictures, yet. I did retakes, but that was like 2-3 weeks ago.
Trying to think if there's anything else.
OH. A kid from my school died yesterday :c He had a seizure. His name was Caleb, I didn't know him- he was a senior. But I know some kids that did know him. It was pretty sad. :[ Poor guy.
And I'm going to the Black Veil Brides concert in four days! AHHHMG! So excited <333!! I'm going with Emma, and we're leaving at 11 and getting there at 2 or 3, MAYBE getting there a little early, then going to the concert, and then staying the night at a hotel <33 Ohh I'm so excited. I can't wait for Saturday! I kind of feel bad because my grandmother already had plans to take me to a Sara Barielles concert. I was excited about that like a month ago, but I forgot and made plans, and we've booked the hotel and everything.... I feel so bad. :c But, BVB must not be missed. Can't. No. Gotta go to lunch now, Ily! Random, but I do? xD
But yeah.
So, I know some of my friends have been worried about me lately- don't. I'm finnne. :c Considering not posting bad things in my blog now, because it worries people.
So, went out to dinner last night with my friends, Kim and Emma. I WENT TO THE MOST AMAZING PLACE EVER. It's called the New China Buffet. Oooohmygosh <33 xD It's so wonderful. Out of the four flavors they have, they have my favorite icecream flavor EVER. Cotton Candy <3 Not a very common flavor, either. They have tasty little cakey rolls, duck [sounds icky, but it's amazing], Egg rolls, Jello, EVERYTHING. I love it so much! And it's only $9 :o Ahhh. I'm going there for my birthday, Lol. I could eat my weight in their food. <3 But I won't, cause fatness is baddd.
OHHH. I'm sad. :c I had to write a poem for Creative Writing class, titled Dreams and about dreams. So I did. I showed Devin, he liked it. My mom liked it. Savannah liked it. I got the lowest score DDD: AGGHHH. Makes me sad. I worked really hard on it, too! I was rated a 38/100. FML.
And I really have a craving for peeps... I dunno. I do.
My hair is annoying me, I want it blonder now. o_o Dunno if I should do it or not.
AHH. HOMECOMING'S IN 18 DAYS. AHHH. I have to order my dress/shoes today. x__x This is what I'm wearing:
http://www.cbslimited.com/mori-lee-prom-dress-9099.htm In blue, scroll down
http://www.cbslimited.com/silver-shoes-189%20Princess.htm
I'm excited :] Apparently one of my friends nominated me for the homecoming court. Man, I hope I get on it! o_o I would loooove that. I nominated Devin and Andrea, my favorite people ever <33 And Kim and Amelia, but I didn't think to nominate them- I thought it had to be a couple. D: My advisory teacher didn't know, so I didn't know.
Apparently they spelled our school name wrong on our student IDs. FAILL! Lol. They didn't give me one- they said they didn't have one for me, even though I took the picture for it. o_o And, I haven't gotten my school pictures, yet. I did retakes, but that was like 2-3 weeks ago.
Trying to think if there's anything else.
OH. A kid from my school died yesterday :c He had a seizure. His name was Caleb, I didn't know him- he was a senior. But I know some kids that did know him. It was pretty sad. :[ Poor guy.
And I'm going to the Black Veil Brides concert in four days! AHHHMG! So excited <333!! I'm going with Emma, and we're leaving at 11 and getting there at 2 or 3, MAYBE getting there a little early, then going to the concert, and then staying the night at a hotel <33 Ohh I'm so excited. I can't wait for Saturday! I kind of feel bad because my grandmother already had plans to take me to a Sara Barielles concert. I was excited about that like a month ago, but I forgot and made plans, and we've booked the hotel and everything.... I feel so bad. :c But, BVB must not be missed. Can't. No. Gotta go to lunch now, Ily! Random, but I do? xD
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So, I'm REALLY sad now.
I can't go to homecoming, because my dad's a jerk and he lied to me and now I don't have a dress and none of them I can find are good enough. So I can't go, because I don't have a dress.
You have no idea how much that crushed me. I guess it seems silly, but it was really important to me. On top of that, I've just felt like crying all day. I've been thinking a lot about Vince, and what happened with him. I told a friend something not so pleasant that I'd been wanting to tell them for weeks. My other friend totally doesn't care about me. Everyone I see has a boyfriend or a girlfriend, and of course I'm single. So. Everything pretty much sucks right now. Now my ribs hurt like crazy, because I was sitting there screaming into a pillow for fifteen minutes because I didn't have a knife and it was so tempting it was crazy. Pathetic, right? Yeah. Then I went downstairs, got a knife, came back upstairs, and sat against my bed with it. I was holding it too tightly and it cut the skin near my ribs [And my shirt. :c Good thing it was old and icky]. So now I have blood all over my stomach, and it hurts. I feel a little better, though. Incase your wondering, no, I was NOT feeling suicidal over homecoming. Did I want to cut? Oh, yeah.
So I'm really upset now, and none of my friends will answer me on Skype, and it's making me even more upset.
I can't go to homecoming, because my dad's a jerk and he lied to me and now I don't have a dress and none of them I can find are good enough. So I can't go, because I don't have a dress.
You have no idea how much that crushed me. I guess it seems silly, but it was really important to me. On top of that, I've just felt like crying all day. I've been thinking a lot about Vince, and what happened with him. I told a friend something not so pleasant that I'd been wanting to tell them for weeks. My other friend totally doesn't care about me. Everyone I see has a boyfriend or a girlfriend, and of course I'm single. So. Everything pretty much sucks right now. Now my ribs hurt like crazy, because I was sitting there screaming into a pillow for fifteen minutes because I didn't have a knife and it was so tempting it was crazy. Pathetic, right? Yeah. Then I went downstairs, got a knife, came back upstairs, and sat against my bed with it. I was holding it too tightly and it cut the skin near my ribs [And my shirt. :c Good thing it was old and icky]. So now I have blood all over my stomach, and it hurts. I feel a little better, though. Incase your wondering, no, I was NOT feeling suicidal over homecoming. Did I want to cut? Oh, yeah.
So I'm really upset now, and none of my friends will answer me on Skype, and it's making me even more upset.
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So the guy that said no is being even MORE of a jerk to me. We were talking about it, because he thought it was wrong that I'd told my friends. Pshh.
Sydney: She told me about how you said no to her, and I was like, "Well if he's nice to her and he's just a jerk to me, then he obviously doesn't care at all... :/"
Tanner: well she asked me to date and going to a dance is different
Sydney: Just because it's different doesn't mean you should treat the person differently.
Sydney: What, just because I didn't ask you out means I don't deserve to be let down nicely?
Tanner: people have different perspectives about this
UGGGGGGGGGGH. He's totally going to send me over the edge with the cutting thing- I can't stand him.
Other than that, I told Emma something important today- May be telling other close friends. She didn't hate me for it, so hopefully they won't if I tell them. One of my friends I know I can never tell because she'd totally shun me, which makes me sad, but that's the way it is. :c
Guess that's it for now.
Bye.
Sydney: She told me about how you said no to her, and I was like, "Well if he's nice to her and he's just a jerk to me, then he obviously doesn't care at all... :/"
Tanner: well she asked me to date and going to a dance is different
Sydney: Just because it's different doesn't mean you should treat the person differently.
Sydney: What, just because I didn't ask you out means I don't deserve to be let down nicely?
Tanner: people have different perspectives about this
UGGGGGGGGGGH. He's totally going to send me over the edge with the cutting thing- I can't stand him.
Other than that, I told Emma something important today- May be telling other close friends. She didn't hate me for it, so hopefully they won't if I tell them. One of my friends I know I can never tell because she'd totally shun me, which makes me sad, but that's the way it is. :c
Guess that's it for now.
Bye.
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Okay, so, I'm typing out this whole freaking conversation.
Atleast what parts I have of it.
I asked a guy I know to homecoming, since I THOUGHT he was really nice and cool. And every single person I know thought he liked me and would say yes.
I asked him to call me, since I was going to ask him to homecoming. He didn't know that.
He said why?
I said because, I'll tell you when you call.
He said why.
I said I have to ask you something.
He asked if it was about homecoming.
And I have the logs now.
Me: Yes
Him: are you going to ask me to go with you?
Me: ...Yes? :P
Him: idk if i am even going yet, plus i was already going to ask someone else but i do not know if she will go with me, you better not get upset about it, btw are we meeting at the sign? [Neighborhood sign, he lives near me]
Me: Who are you asking?
Him: i was thinking about asking allie why?
Him: are we still meeting at the sign or not?
Him: are you guys pondering about why i would ask her? [Yeah, we were. My best friend was with me. He's barely ever talked to her, and she's like a million lightyears out of his league. She's so pretty. And just the day before, he'd said "Personality's what matters!"]
Me: Um, yeah...
Him: so are we meeting?
Him: sydney i honestly don't have time to wait around for a reply so are we meeting or not and if we do it is the [insert my neighborhoods name here] sign
Me: Why are you asking her?
Him: sydney are we meeting or not
Me: Answer me first. Why her?
Him: why does it matter
Me: I wanna know
Him: well i wanna know why you like tiny tim [Tim's this guy I though/think is adorable. He's really nice, but I don't LIKE him. This comment led me to believe he was being jealous or something. :/ He hates the guy, and every time I mention him he goes all GRRRRR]
Me: Seriously. Is THAT what this is about? I don't even like him
Him: what the heck you liked him last week
Me: Um, more like last month. What does that have to do with anything?
Him: why does allie have to do with anything btw it is to late to meet unless you come now [Uh, cause we're talking about her, stupid? And btw, it was 4:30. Late? I think not. :/]
Me: Sure. Kim's coming with me. [I gave in, Lol.]
Him: ok
Him: are you going the right way
Me: Yeah, we'll be there in a minute.
Him: it sure is taking a while [It took five minutes.]
Me: On our way...
Then he attempts to give me directions for walking down a road. One road. Ughh. Douche. :/ When we got there, he acted like nothing happened. And he was pretty persistant about meeting, as you can see, so we asked why and he was all, "oh i was just bored".
Is he a jerk or what?
To top it all off, he doesn't get why I'm mad and still wants to be friends.
Another thing. When my friend asked him out, he said "Well I value our friendship, and I wouldn't want to mess that up". I'm just told that I BETTER not get upset about it. :/
Yeah, I'm pissed.
On top of that, the dress I want for homecoming [I'm going alone, cause I suck I guess.] is $250. Then there's shoes, a bag, and jewelry. Oh, and mani pedi. URGHHHH.
Gonna die. :[
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Hey again. So, I can't decide if life sucks right now or if it's okay. Lane's moving out, which is AWESOME. But everything else pretty much sucks. My parents are yelling all the time, Lane's threatening to kill people, and I come home to find my mom passed out in the bathroom. I'm never alone anymore, and I don't get to sing anymore, which makes me sad cause I usually only write when I sing. I don't know why. My laptop's dead, poor Eve. This girl I barely know hates me, and she's such a whore. I hate her, too.
There's a guy I might be going out with soon, but I dunno.
I'm really upset, cause I was with three friends and we were at the mall, and one of them just bought a homecoming dress there [$37 from a place called Souths, they're really nice, but expensive, she got hers on sale] and another friend had one put on layaway [$90, same place] And it kind of bothers me that I don't have that kind of money to just throw around on a whim. My shopping habits would support it, but I don't. And I was SO upset that none of the dresses looked right on me... My friends look good in ANYTHING. And I mean anything. I guess they just don't make nice dresses for fat girls. :/
Then one of my friends seems sad all the time and won't talk to me. I really miss them, too.
I'm thinking of telling a few people something about me that no one knows- I'm tired of hiding it.
Apart from that I've been feeling suicidal lately, and I've been so tempted to start cutting again...
Ugh. I don't know what to do.
Fml.
There's a guy I might be going out with soon, but I dunno.
I'm really upset, cause I was with three friends and we were at the mall, and one of them just bought a homecoming dress there [$37 from a place called Souths, they're really nice, but expensive, she got hers on sale] and another friend had one put on layaway [$90, same place] And it kind of bothers me that I don't have that kind of money to just throw around on a whim. My shopping habits would support it, but I don't. And I was SO upset that none of the dresses looked right on me... My friends look good in ANYTHING. And I mean anything. I guess they just don't make nice dresses for fat girls. :/
Then one of my friends seems sad all the time and won't talk to me. I really miss them, too.
I'm thinking of telling a few people something about me that no one knows- I'm tired of hiding it.
Apart from that I've been feeling suicidal lately, and I've been so tempted to start cutting again...
Ugh. I don't know what to do.
Fml.
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Heyyy. So, things are getting worse for me.
I don't see my friends that much, and when I do it's for five seconds and they don't pay attention to me. Everyone's made new friends, I don't even have anyone to sit with at lunch.
I'm feeling worse and worse, and it's kind of going back to the way I used to be. :[ Picked up a bad habit from the past, not gonna say what it is.
I just feel crappy :c
I miss Vince a lot, I miss my friends, and I miss having free time.
I've been getting less sleep than usual, cause I hate knowing that I have to wake up in the morning. It's just depressing to me.
And it's like everyone at the highschool is dating someone. All I have is some wierd junior dude that hits on me in healthful living, and he's not even cute. D: Ughhh.
I don't have much to tell you all, 'cept that I'm quite deressed, all the time. x_x So, that's it.
I don't see my friends that much, and when I do it's for five seconds and they don't pay attention to me. Everyone's made new friends, I don't even have anyone to sit with at lunch.
I'm feeling worse and worse, and it's kind of going back to the way I used to be. :[ Picked up a bad habit from the past, not gonna say what it is.
I just feel crappy :c
I miss Vince a lot, I miss my friends, and I miss having free time.
I've been getting less sleep than usual, cause I hate knowing that I have to wake up in the morning. It's just depressing to me.
And it's like everyone at the highschool is dating someone. All I have is some wierd junior dude that hits on me in healthful living, and he's not even cute. D: Ughhh.
I don't have much to tell you all, 'cept that I'm quite deressed, all the time. x_x So, that's it.
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Heyyy.
So, last night I had the best and worst dream of my life.
It was weird, 'cause we'd moved to some beach and we lived right on it.
My dad was driving me somewhere, and we stopped at someone's house, and this part makes no sense. Vince walks up to me, and somehow I know it's him, just instantly, and he knows its me. I run at him and hug him really hard, and we start walking. We stop at this little garden, with one of those two person hanging swings. We sit down and talk for like half an hour, before we get up and we're just kind of randomly dancing and swirling and talking and laughing. We're going back, and we're walking down these steps, and he puts his arm around my waist and I lay my head on his shoulder and it's so sweet. That was my favorite part, actually, cause I could feel it and it was just perfect. So we get in my dads car, and we're holding hands. When we get back to my house, we're sitting out on my back porch, which overlooks the ocean, but there are a few trees and plants in my backyard and some grass. Then there are wooden steps that lead down to the sand.
So we're talking, and he kisses me, and tells me he's moving there. I start crying, cause I'm so happy, and he just holds me for a little while. Then he says he has to go, and then I wake up.
It made me miss him so much, and I cried so hard, for hours. I didn't go downstairs until 1, and I'd woken up at 8. It was so amazing, but so horrible. I wish he was here, so badly.
But, that can't happen, so, in other news. x_x
Highschool's pretty fun. I have creative writing, then honors english, then healthful living, then math. I hate my third class, and dislike my fourth, though I sit next to a cute guy who's really nice [at least to me]. He got pantsed on Friday, undies and all o_o I saw nothing. Thank God.
I have fourth lunch, wish I didn't. My friends all have new friends and there's no room for me at the lunch table, so I end up sitting alone and feeling stupid and like an outcast.
I have this half-diet, half-fasting plan thing. I'm eating salad for dinner, and nothing else throughout the day. I hate eating at school, cause for some reason eating at all makes me guilty and I feel like everyone's staring at me. So, not lunch. No time in the morning. Maybe after school? I dunno. If you saw me, you'd know there's no room for anything but improvement. So, it couldn't hurt. Gonna test it this week, after I get better. I have a cold :c A really bad, annoying one. Apparently a lot of people at my school have been getting sick, including my best friend whom I hugged many times. I think I got it from her. It's been horrible, I've gone through four bags of ice and two boxes of tissues. I'm freezing, and I wanna wrap myself in a blanket, but I feel so hot and irritated. Especially where my hair comes down.
There's a cute little game I've been playing, called Transformice.
www.transformice.com/en <----Gotta add the en if you want it in English.
Band of the week: Hey Monday
Sad, cause I didn't go to see them at Warped tour when I was there. I didn't know about them then. I've been listening to them for like, three days, and I already love them. The girl was singing Skyway Avenue with the guy from We The Kings when we saw them, so I saw a little, I guess.
Tired, so I'ma go. I'm afraid to sleep, knowing what happened last night. If it happens again I'm just gonna die.
Night. <3
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So, having a bad day. :[ Went uptown with my friends, that was fun. Amelia and I were looking at this hoard of like, 20 butterflies, and everyone else continued on. So then we went up to Devant field, and I just sat on the hillside trying to text and call them to find out where they were. Of course they answered when Amelia called, but I was ignored.
So, since they obviously didn't wanna talk to me, I got up and walked off, and ended up somewhere down the road. Didn't know where I was. I sat there for like, 15 to 20 minutes, cause I got dizzy and didn't wanna walk anymore. Amelia finally called me and asked me where I was, and we agreed to meet at a stage thing thats near a trail. So everyone got there, after like 10 minutes. My day was pretty much ruined by then cause I'd been thinking about things.
I'm really annoyed with my life.
Most of my friends are dating people now, and it's wierd cause it's this giant flaming constant reminder that I don't have anyone like that.
I just wish someone would ask me if I'm okay and care about the answer. It seems like when people start dating, their boyfriend or girlfriend are all they care about. I'm not gonna go all jealous-crazy and try to break everyone up, though. I'm happy for them, I am. I just feel all lonely and stuff. :[
And now I'm really emotional and stupid. My dad asked me to clean up some water and I just randomly starting sobbing. Ughh. Now my face is all red and I feel even worse than I did before.
I HATE GUYS.
Ughh again.
Oh, and I looked totally stupid today. I was wearing a skirt over my shorts, and when I got there Amelia was all, "Whats with the skirt?" and I was like, "Well, I thought it was cute. D:" and she was all "..." so, ehh.
You know what I want? The State Farm commercial guy. "Like a good neighbor, State Farm is THERE! With a hot guy. Who's also sensitive!" I don't like Dark Side, he's wierd looking. But Hot and Sensitive? Oh yes.
So, new episode of Secret Life of the American Teenager and Huge tonight.
I've been eating mac and cheese like a madwoman, cause I eat when I'm upset.
So, new episode of Secret Life of the American Teenager and Huge tonight. Gonna go watch 'em.
So, since they obviously didn't wanna talk to me, I got up and walked off, and ended up somewhere down the road. Didn't know where I was. I sat there for like, 15 to 20 minutes, cause I got dizzy and didn't wanna walk anymore. Amelia finally called me and asked me where I was, and we agreed to meet at a stage thing thats near a trail. So everyone got there, after like 10 minutes. My day was pretty much ruined by then cause I'd been thinking about things.
I'm really annoyed with my life.
Most of my friends are dating people now, and it's wierd cause it's this giant flaming constant reminder that I don't have anyone like that.
I just wish someone would ask me if I'm okay and care about the answer. It seems like when people start dating, their boyfriend or girlfriend are all they care about. I'm not gonna go all jealous-crazy and try to break everyone up, though. I'm happy for them, I am. I just feel all lonely and stuff. :[
And now I'm really emotional and stupid. My dad asked me to clean up some water and I just randomly starting sobbing. Ughh. Now my face is all red and I feel even worse than I did before.
I HATE GUYS.
Ughh again.
Oh, and I looked totally stupid today. I was wearing a skirt over my shorts, and when I got there Amelia was all, "Whats with the skirt?" and I was like, "Well, I thought it was cute. D:" and she was all "..." so, ehh.
You know what I want? The State Farm commercial guy. "Like a good neighbor, State Farm is THERE! With a hot guy. Who's also sensitive!" I don't like Dark Side, he's wierd looking. But Hot and Sensitive? Oh yes.
So, new episode of Secret Life of the American Teenager and Huge tonight.
I've been eating mac and cheese like a madwoman, cause I eat when I'm upset.
So, new episode of Secret Life of the American Teenager and Huge tonight. Gonna go watch 'em.
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Hellooo.
So, I'm the only single one among my friends now, other than Amelia. And she thinks I'll end up with someone creepy. :[
But anyway.
Went uptown with Devin, Andrea, Amelia, Kim, Mario, Brooke, and Stephen. Kim and Mario left us like, five minutes after I got there, and we ditched Brooke and Stephen. Mostly 'cause of Stephen :P
So then it was me, Amelia, Devin and Andrea. Then Devin and Andrea ran, and Amelia followed them, and I was stuck with Stephen who was following me and kind of being creepy. Ehhh.
Had fun, though.
Really excited about school starting :] Cute guy near my locker, hurrah! His name's Brandon :P
Annoyed though, cause I can't download AIM to talk to Eimmur on the laptop D: Cause everyone's getting one, just $50 for insurance and stuff. And she nolonger has a Facebook, which they stupidly let us use.
And my bus is one hour late. So, every day after school, I get to sit there for an hour and do homework. Lots of my friends are riding my bus, though, so that's nice. I'm leaving school ten minutes after I used to get home. So I'll probably be home really late. D; Havierre's doing cross country so I can't talk to him, Kim's probably not riding the bus, I don't think Amelia has my bus, and I don't really talk to Logan or Hailey alone. Dunno, we're just not that close. I'll have Andrea, though. All I have to do is mention mustaches, peanut butter, or sandwich folding to make her laugh. So that should be interesting xD
I haven't seen my Eimmurloo in quite a while :c I miss herrrr.
You know, I just realized how my two nicknames I've gotten from her are totally opposites. Jeezus and The Supreme Goat Lord. xD Kim says Supreme Goat Lord sounds satanic. And Jeezus is just obvious.
Lol.
I think one of my friends is ignoring me :c A good one, too. Ehh.
I'ma bored.
Ohh, I'm working on a song :> For the talent show. I'm starting waaay early, since it's somewhere in January or February. But all I have are the lyrics and the tune. It's one of the only songs that stays exactly the same every time I sing it. All of the other ones, the notes change and the tune changes. This one's a love song, though I don't know why 'cause I have no one to write a love song about. Gonna sing it to Kim and see what she thinks of it. Not in a creepy, I'm-singing-you-a-love-song-cause-I-love-you way, just to get her opinion. Here's my chorus:
You’re lifting me so high that I can’t breathe
Take away my oxygen
You are all I need
And I can see
How it would hurt so much to fall
From this pedestal I’m on
When I’m with you
It's short, but it's a slow song so it's not gonna be like two minutes xP I need music for it. But I don't know anyone that could help with that... I'm thinking piano, definitely, possibly violins, maybe a guitar. Acoustic. Dunno. Usually I can tell what the music would be like, but with this one I don't know how.
I've discovered my voice sounds best after eating peanutbutter and honey :P Melted and mixed. Yum <3 My voice changes after I drink or eat certain things o.O Like lemonade turns my voice to crap.
I'm gonna go work on this, maybe figure out what to do with it. I really don't wanna sing it acapella, but I might have to. D;
Tata!
So, I'm the only single one among my friends now, other than Amelia. And she thinks I'll end up with someone creepy. :[
But anyway.
Went uptown with Devin, Andrea, Amelia, Kim, Mario, Brooke, and Stephen. Kim and Mario left us like, five minutes after I got there, and we ditched Brooke and Stephen. Mostly 'cause of Stephen :P
So then it was me, Amelia, Devin and Andrea. Then Devin and Andrea ran, and Amelia followed them, and I was stuck with Stephen who was following me and kind of being creepy. Ehhh.
Had fun, though.
Really excited about school starting :] Cute guy near my locker, hurrah! His name's Brandon :P
Annoyed though, cause I can't download AIM to talk to Eimmur on the laptop D: Cause everyone's getting one, just $50 for insurance and stuff. And she nolonger has a Facebook, which they stupidly let us use.
And my bus is one hour late. So, every day after school, I get to sit there for an hour and do homework. Lots of my friends are riding my bus, though, so that's nice. I'm leaving school ten minutes after I used to get home. So I'll probably be home really late. D; Havierre's doing cross country so I can't talk to him, Kim's probably not riding the bus, I don't think Amelia has my bus, and I don't really talk to Logan or Hailey alone. Dunno, we're just not that close. I'll have Andrea, though. All I have to do is mention mustaches, peanut butter, or sandwich folding to make her laugh. So that should be interesting xD
I haven't seen my Eimmurloo in quite a while :c I miss herrrr.
You know, I just realized how my two nicknames I've gotten from her are totally opposites. Jeezus and The Supreme Goat Lord. xD Kim says Supreme Goat Lord sounds satanic. And Jeezus is just obvious.
Lol.
I think one of my friends is ignoring me :c A good one, too. Ehh.
I'ma bored.
Ohh, I'm working on a song :> For the talent show. I'm starting waaay early, since it's somewhere in January or February. But all I have are the lyrics and the tune. It's one of the only songs that stays exactly the same every time I sing it. All of the other ones, the notes change and the tune changes. This one's a love song, though I don't know why 'cause I have no one to write a love song about. Gonna sing it to Kim and see what she thinks of it. Not in a creepy, I'm-singing-you-a-love-song-cause-I-love-you way, just to get her opinion. Here's my chorus:
You’re lifting me so high that I can’t breathe
Take away my oxygen
You are all I need
And I can see
How it would hurt so much to fall
From this pedestal I’m on
When I’m with you
It's short, but it's a slow song so it's not gonna be like two minutes xP I need music for it. But I don't know anyone that could help with that... I'm thinking piano, definitely, possibly violins, maybe a guitar. Acoustic. Dunno. Usually I can tell what the music would be like, but with this one I don't know how.
I've discovered my voice sounds best after eating peanutbutter and honey :P Melted and mixed. Yum <3 My voice changes after I drink or eat certain things o.O Like lemonade turns my voice to crap.
I'm gonna go work on this, maybe figure out what to do with it. I really don't wanna sing it acapella, but I might have to. D;
Tata!
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Holaaa!
Kinda bored now. :P Listening to The Veronicas <3 I've been meaning to make a list of awesome songs. Just because people should listen to them.
1. Goodnight Moon- Go Radio [BEAUTIFUL song!]
2. Why I'm Home- Go Radio [Another beautiful song]
3. Hurricane- 30 Seconds To Mars
4. This Is War- 30 Seconds To Mars
5. Hook Me Up- The Veronicas
6. Revenge Is Sweeter Than You Ever Were- The Veronicas
7. Brick By Boring Brick- Paramore
8. Jamie All Over- Mayday Parade
9. Do Not Disturb- Lets Get It
10. Unfold- Marie Digby [As far as I know, not many people know about her. She has a beautiful voice, and this is a really pretty song. :3]
That's all I can think of for now, and ten's a good number :P So.
I've been messing around with makeup, eyeliner and whatnot. I look so different! o_o
Thinking about cutting my hair. I love it long, and I always wanted long hair when I was little, but I dunno. I'm thinking somewhere like an inch or two past my shoulders, lots of layers and possibly highlights. Keeping my bangs, of course.
Right now my hair is reddish brown, bangs that sweep to the left, and it's like, a little more than halfway down my upper arm. If that makes sense? It curls naturally, but not a lot. Kind of a wavyish curly. But I straighten it, cause I can't stand it. Which annoys me, cause it's making my hair less soft. I've always loved how silky my hair is xP
Anyway. Dunno if I should mess with it, though. Nobody cares about my hair xD
Ahh... Trying to think if there's anything else.
Oh. Freshman orientation's Thursday, not Friday :P Blonde moment. I will always be naturally blonde, nomatter what color I dye my hair. So, tomorrow! Exciteeeed! I can't wait for my schedule. If don't have any classes with my friends, and I end up alone, I'ma hurt somebody. >.> Oohhh, I really hope I got creative writing. x.x
My sort of dream is to become an author. My first book is going to be poetry, since it's easier for me to write. Second will either be a romance or a horror. I can't do comedy, I'm not funny xD But I am somewhat of a hopeless romantic. :P And I'll always have a love for horror <3 I write such morbid things, though. But I love it x] Murder fascinates me. Just the interesting ones, though.
OOOH. I just took a shower [Yeah, like a day passed since I wrote the first part of this xD It was somewhere between 1 and 3 A.M.] and I found this AMAZING conditioner! It was a tiny bottle, like from a hotel. We ran out so I grabbed it from our endless drawer of hotel shampoos :P It smells like, like those red candies do, that are kind of spicy tasting? Like, hot? IT WAS AMAZING. Cinnamon-y, almost. But like cinnamon-y flavored things, not cinnamon itself. But now I'm sad cause it was a tiny bottle and I have no more D: I WANT ET. I need to find it somewhere... I saved the bottle xD
Oh. I'm sad now. :c Cause when I went to Warped, I was wearing a tank top and a shirt that was a tank top. I was wearing eight straps that day, cause my tank top has two on each side. They're imprinted in my back. I got sunburnt, and I figured that was the end of it, that when my sunburn was gone it would go away.
But no.
When I sunburned, I also tanned a little bit. So now the stripes are forever in my skin. It's a big X on my back, since I safety pinned my straps cause they were slipping and annoying me. e.e Atleast it's better than normal strap stripes. D: But still. Ughh. It's kind of cool looking, though xP
Orientation's TOMORROWWWWW!
Sidetracked! :D I was gonna write about orientation. But now I'm not ^^
Listening to King of Anything by Sara Barielles. Lovely song. :] The music video's wierd, though. But I LOVE her white dress! And she's so much more bubbly and pretty and dance-y when she's wearing it. Then again, tutu's just do that to you. You wanna dance and you feel all princessy. :3 As Eimmur would say, you get all "IT'S QUEEN, BETCH!" xD Lol, memories...
Anyhoooooooo. Back to zhe FROOSHMEN. <--- I'm quite hyper.
OhmyGoood. I'm nervous about my schedule! I really hope I have lunch with my friends D: My friend wants to meet new people, and I'm pretty terrified of them. I want atleast one person I know in every class, so that I have someone to sit next to. It's just comforting knowing your not alone. Atleast to me it is, I dunno about other people. Cause my friend's all, "Eh, I don't really care about anything but lunch. I'm gonna meet tons of new people! :D" While I'm like, "OHCRAP. RUNNNN." Cause I can be quite shy. If you know me, you prolly just laughed and went, "PAH! Lies!" But I am, in front of people I don't know, and adults. I get all quiet and awkward e.e In front of my friends I'm bubbly and hyper and clumsy and stupid and annoying. :P
But there are things I'm looking forward to. Like the guys. And seeing my friends everyday. And the laptops.
But hey, lets face it, mostly the guys xD
My friend's always annoyed with me cause according to her I'm guy scouting 24/7 :P
Ohh, and I got a journal. :P Mainly for blogging on the go. I don't know why, but my little blog's important to me. I don't care if anyone reads it, it's more for me than anyone else. I just like to talk. xD And there are things I can't really tell people. And they go here :> Or atleast, they used to. My last blog had EVERYTHING in it. What I thought of people, what they did, who I liked, etc. Not like just a whole thing of me talking about people, but it had some opinions in it that I wouldn't want anyone I knew to know. Now a few people I know read my blog, so I can't really put it in here. Not that I don't trust those people, cause I totally do. They're my closest friends, and they're the ones I can trust with pretty much anything. There are three of them, I believe :P I gave my other friend the link, but she hasn't looked at it yet. And I think all three have pretty much dropped my blog. But that's fine ^^ I always end up telling two of them pretty much whatever's in here, and I don't talk to the third much, but we're good friends. At least, I think we are? I hope so o.o;
Eimmur knows everything before anyone else does, though. Cause I talk to her the most out of anyone I know, even though I never see her anymore. Tear. ;[ She's my girlfrannn. We got pregnant together, and had miscarriages together, and talked about her manly feet when it got quiet together, and I helped her through her lollipop problem that she doesn't remember, and she's QUEEN, betch xD Ohh, I love her, Lol.
Kim-A-Kwee is the one I talk to about girl stuff, and guys xD Unless they're Asian, that's Eimmurs department. Cause Asian guys are HOT.
But anyway.
Kim and I stay up for hours talking whenever we have sleepovers x] Cause she's my soulmate xP
Kim's my soulmate, Emma's my girlfriend, and Andrea's my wife. We adopted Amelia, who is married to Devin, who is married to Kim. Devin's dating Andrea [The only REAL relationship in this xD], and Tanner is Devin and Amelia's child. Joseph's the wierd uncle, and Kim adopted Makayla, I adopted India, and I declared Matias as my long lost brother even though he wanted no part in this. Brooke and Kodie decided to marry eachother, and then Andrea got married to Tanner. So she's cheating on me with Tanner, and my own son. Who's cheating on HER with both our daughters. Lol. Our family is really screwed up :D
But I love mah wifey. And my girlfrann, and my soulmate xD This started because we did a president thing, where we chose a president or a first lady and wrote a speech that they may have given, but didn't. I was Abe Lincoln [I know, I know. It was the only book I had and I was out of time :c], and Andrea was Mrs. Lincoln xD So we were married. Amelia and Devin were Mister and Misses Adams, with Tanner as their son. The rest of it formed when we adopted Amelia, and Devin became our son in law and Tanner became our grandson. Then Devin married Kim somehow, and she also became my soulmate, and Emma was always my girlfriend, long before this. Joseph added himself as the wierd uncle, though nobody knows who's uncle he is. xD Then Kim adopted and I adopted and I forced Matias into it. Brooke, Kodie, and Tanner marrying Andrea happened when people atempted to make a new one, though it failed. Lol, I just realized Andrea married our grandson.
I'm thirsty. D: I shall be right back. Even though you wouldn't know I was gone if I didn't tell you. So HA. RANDOM HA.
I'm baaack! I found my tiny mug, too! :D I love ittt. It's black and green and TINY! It doesn't hold much, so I'm always going back for more, but it's so cute! :3 I thought I'd lost it. D: It comes with a little green spoon <3 Cuuute.
Ohh, and I have a doughnut peach! Quite possibly my favorite food. Ooh, I love how the Q's look on this. They look all fancy :3
Oh, I was looking through my yearbook last night, and a certain girl that I kind of hate, and kind of like, signed it "Blah blah blah, ---- [A.K.A. Rain]
Like, wtf? I'm not gonna start calling you Rain just cause you want a cooler name! And atleast spell it the cool way! D: Either Raine or Rayne. Nothing against people with the name Rain, it's a pretty cool name :]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eR7-AUmiNcA&feature=PlayList&p=D57A6210BAD4596B&index=2
Love that! Reminds me of myself, especially the beginning. What I WANT to say, but never would. My mind can be quite sarcastic and mean >.>; But I come off as nice to most people :P It takes a LOT to make me angry. And even if you succeed, I forgive people really quickly. But I can be a total bitch if I wanna be. Most people never see it. Only when you really offend me. Havierre's seen it, like once, when he insulted my hot pink tutu xD Which, looking back on it, doesn't seem very unreasonable. But at the time I was in love with that tutu. >.>; I don't think Kim's ever seen it. Eimmur has. I went through this phase of total anger e.e; No smilies, so LOL's, nothing. Like every time we talked I was just grrr. That lasted like, two weeks. Not cause we were fighting or anything, but just cause I was in a bad mood. I think that was one of the times when Vince had just left again. Oh, we're broken up again. Er, mostly, I think. Dunno if I told you all that we were back together? We were. Cause he was all, "I miss you ];" And I was all, "Aww! D: I miss you too." And then he was all, "...Why'd you break up with me?" And I was all, "I dunno, things were just... Different." And then he was all, "Well, do you wanna try again?" And then I was like, "Kinda. I mean, I really care about you, but, I dunno."
And there was more, but that was pretty much it. Summary, of course. I didn't save the conversation. :P I have one, though xD It was pretty hilarious. About my goat babies ;] I don't know if I've told you that story.
Somehow I gained the name Supreme Goat Lord. That's what Eimmur called me xP That or Jeezus. It's in here, so just read this xD
Vinny is available 11:24 pm
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Sydney 11:24 pm
(11:24:12 PM): Hi Vinny. ^^
Vinny 11:24 pm
(11:24:44 PM): Hey Syd.
Sydney 11:25 pm
(11:25:24 PM): How're you? :3 I haven't talked to you in forever! D:
Vinny 11:26 pm
(11:26:30 PM): I'm Fine I Guess. And I Know. Missed You Alot. <33
Sydney 11:28 pm
(11:28:03 PM): I missed you tooo! :c I didn't wanna bug you, but my friend and I somehow started talking about you and goat babies... o.o; So I wanted to talk to you. <3
Vinny 11:29 pm
(11:29:10 PM): LMFAO. Talking About Me? But Syd. You Dont Ever Bug Me. >.> And You never Talk To Me When I'm On. D: And LOLOL@ Goat Babies. <3
Sydney 11:34 pm
(11:34:25 PM): Yus. :P It started out with me being the Supreme Goat Lord, and then she said I should be a goat for Halloween. Then she was gonna be the goat butt so that she could kick people with our awesome goatly legs. :P But I could only find one person goat costumes, and she'd be blind. D: Then I found a picture of a guy with goat horns and I was like, "BAHA. Goat maaan!" and she was all, "Psh. He's ugly. D;" And so I was all, "Nuh uh!" then I found a picture of a toddler in a goat costume and I was like, "You know what, you're right. THIS is one sexy goat!" and then she laughed and I was like, "Yay my toddler goats make you laugh. :D BUT IT'S NOT MINE." and she was like, "Psh kay I didn't think Vinny was a goat anyway xP" and then we got into how I would explain to my dad how I got pregnant with goat babies. So yeah. xP And I'm sorry! :c I don't wanna annoy you, and I figured if you wanted to talk to me you'd message me. D;
Vinny 11:36 pm
(11:36:46 PM): LOLOLOL. Glad She Didnt Think I Was A Goat. xD And Its Fine Love. I've Just been Worried About Some Stuff. And..I'm Glad Your Doing Okay. But Anytime You Message Me. I'll Reply. You Never Annoy Me.
ZeBellieFairy 11:41 pm
(11:41:20 PM): Aw. Well, I hope you're okay and all. :c Don't stress yourself out too much. D: And mmkay. <3 I'm glad. :3 My goat banter would bug the heck outta most people. xP Ily. <3
Vinny (OnlyVin) is available 11:43 pm
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Vinny 11:43 pm
(11:43:19 PM): Bad Connection o-o
Sydney 11:43 pm
(11:43:37 PM): Don't worry about it, my internet fails on me all the time. x3
Vinny 11:43 pm
(11:43:46 PM): Anyways. I love You.O: Oh Hows Your Mom And Stuff @-@ Hope She's Doing Fine.
Then there's some personal stuff, and some random talk about my mom. :P Aaaand it picks back up here, after an issue e.e:
Sydney 12:36 am
(12:36:06 AM): But I want to help you. :c Any problem of yours is a problem of mine, as cheesy as that may sound. And good, I would die without my goat man. <3
Vinny 12:37 am
(12:37:22 AM): xDD Even If It's Cheesy, I Still Love It When You Say Things Like That. o.o So I'm A Goat man Now xDD <333 I'll be fine. I'll Go To The Police..And It'll All Be Okay
Sydney 12:42 am
(12:42:41 AM): Aww. x3 I'm glad <3 Yes you're a goat man :P You can be the Supreme Goat Lord and I'll be the Supreme Goat Queen. xP And mmkay. <3 As long as you're okay.
Vinny (OnlyVin) is available 12:42 am
::Dejame llorar:: 4h and 25m ago Comment
Vinny 12:43 am
(12:43:40 AM): xDD Can We Have Goat Babies? o.o <33 xDD . And I'll Be Fine.
Sydney 12:48 am
(12:48:02 AM): Yes. xD Our goat babies would be adorable. <33 xP They'd look just like you. ^^ Or as close as a goat can get to you. =P
Vinny 12:48 am
(12:48:51 AM): xDDDD LMFAO. I Bet They Will<55 I Mean..The Mom Is Goregeous..<3
Sydney 12:50 am
(12:50:48 AM): Aw. <3 You're so sweet. But, I don't think a blondish yellow goat would be so pretty xD
Vinny 1:03 am
(1:03:49 AM): LMFAO.. xDDD I think It Would. ANd ..What About If They Come Half Human?
Sydney 1:05 am
(1:05:44 AM): xD That'd be... Interesting :P They'd be all furry and they'd have hooves xP And horns. Poor goat babies, we'd have to homeschool them or something. x3
Vinny 1:08 am
(1:08:09 AM): LOLOL. Yeah C: They'll be So Cute. And And We Get To Teach them And Stuff.. And They'll Be So FLuffy..And @-@ God I Wanna Hold On
(1:08:13 AM): one*
Sydney 1:15 am
(1:15:18 AM): xD They would be. :3 And that'd be fun xD "Billy, go do your homework! Mommy and daddy are busy. >.>" "...Dad, why are you on top of mom?" Andand we have goats heeere! :D At this kiddie amusement park. xP Exploding goats, or alteast that's what my dad calls them. If you scare them they faint o.o
Vinny 1:17 am
(1:17:15 AM): LMFAO@ "...Dad, why are you on top of mom?" xDDD <3 I Guess Being ontop Is Nice XD I Didnt Know That..They'll Faint? xDD
Vinny is available 1:18 am
Sydney&Vin's Goat Babies<3 ]"...Dad, why are you on top of mom?"3s ago Comment
Sydney 1:21 am
(1:21:12 AM): xD Yus. Otherwise it'll look like I'm trying to rape you or something. No rape infront of the goat babies. :P And they do! It's wierd. They get all stiff and their legs lock up and they fall over o.o But it's funny xP
Vinny 1:22 am
(1:22:58 AM): LOLOLOL! I Wanna scare A Goat. o.o I'd Laugh xD. >.> YouCanRapeMeAnytime. Doesnt Have To be You Know <33
Sydney 1:24 am
(1:24:36 AM): xD Ok, I'll keep that in mind. :P Not in front of the goat babies, though. That would scar them for life. D: And it's fun xD They're just like THUMP. No more goat. x3
Vinny 1:26 am
(1:26:57 AM): XDDD True..Cause If We Scare Them.. We'll Have To Make More. xDDD
Sydney 1:29 am
(1:29:01 AM): xD Yup. x3 But, we'd already kind of be working on that, wouldn't we? :P
WE JOKE, PEOPLE. WE JOKE. No rape. xD But yeahh. See why I miss the way it was? It was so fun x_x I just thought that convo was hilarious so I saved it. xP He could be so sweet. D:
I'ma go now, I have orientation in the morning, in like seven or eight hours. Not that I'ma sleep, but... xP
Toodles!
:] <3
Kinda bored now. :P Listening to The Veronicas <3 I've been meaning to make a list of awesome songs. Just because people should listen to them.
1. Goodnight Moon- Go Radio [BEAUTIFUL song!]
2. Why I'm Home- Go Radio [Another beautiful song]
3. Hurricane- 30 Seconds To Mars
4. This Is War- 30 Seconds To Mars
5. Hook Me Up- The Veronicas
6. Revenge Is Sweeter Than You Ever Were- The Veronicas
7. Brick By Boring Brick- Paramore
8. Jamie All Over- Mayday Parade
9. Do Not Disturb- Lets Get It
10. Unfold- Marie Digby [As far as I know, not many people know about her. She has a beautiful voice, and this is a really pretty song. :3]
That's all I can think of for now, and ten's a good number :P So.
I've been messing around with makeup, eyeliner and whatnot. I look so different! o_o
Thinking about cutting my hair. I love it long, and I always wanted long hair when I was little, but I dunno. I'm thinking somewhere like an inch or two past my shoulders, lots of layers and possibly highlights. Keeping my bangs, of course.
Right now my hair is reddish brown, bangs that sweep to the left, and it's like, a little more than halfway down my upper arm. If that makes sense? It curls naturally, but not a lot. Kind of a wavyish curly. But I straighten it, cause I can't stand it. Which annoys me, cause it's making my hair less soft. I've always loved how silky my hair is xP
Anyway. Dunno if I should mess with it, though. Nobody cares about my hair xD
Ahh... Trying to think if there's anything else.
Oh. Freshman orientation's Thursday, not Friday :P Blonde moment. I will always be naturally blonde, nomatter what color I dye my hair. So, tomorrow! Exciteeeed! I can't wait for my schedule. If don't have any classes with my friends, and I end up alone, I'ma hurt somebody. >.> Oohhh, I really hope I got creative writing. x.x
My sort of dream is to become an author. My first book is going to be poetry, since it's easier for me to write. Second will either be a romance or a horror. I can't do comedy, I'm not funny xD But I am somewhat of a hopeless romantic. :P And I'll always have a love for horror <3 I write such morbid things, though. But I love it x] Murder fascinates me. Just the interesting ones, though.
OOOH. I just took a shower [Yeah, like a day passed since I wrote the first part of this xD It was somewhere between 1 and 3 A.M.] and I found this AMAZING conditioner! It was a tiny bottle, like from a hotel. We ran out so I grabbed it from our endless drawer of hotel shampoos :P It smells like, like those red candies do, that are kind of spicy tasting? Like, hot? IT WAS AMAZING. Cinnamon-y, almost. But like cinnamon-y flavored things, not cinnamon itself. But now I'm sad cause it was a tiny bottle and I have no more D: I WANT ET. I need to find it somewhere... I saved the bottle xD
Oh. I'm sad now. :c Cause when I went to Warped, I was wearing a tank top and a shirt that was a tank top. I was wearing eight straps that day, cause my tank top has two on each side. They're imprinted in my back. I got sunburnt, and I figured that was the end of it, that when my sunburn was gone it would go away.
But no.
When I sunburned, I also tanned a little bit. So now the stripes are forever in my skin. It's a big X on my back, since I safety pinned my straps cause they were slipping and annoying me. e.e Atleast it's better than normal strap stripes. D: But still. Ughh. It's kind of cool looking, though xP
Orientation's TOMORROWWWWW!
Sidetracked! :D I was gonna write about orientation. But now I'm not ^^
Listening to King of Anything by Sara Barielles. Lovely song. :] The music video's wierd, though. But I LOVE her white dress! And she's so much more bubbly and pretty and dance-y when she's wearing it. Then again, tutu's just do that to you. You wanna dance and you feel all princessy. :3 As Eimmur would say, you get all "IT'S QUEEN, BETCH!" xD Lol, memories...
Anyhoooooooo. Back to zhe FROOSHMEN. <--- I'm quite hyper.
OhmyGoood. I'm nervous about my schedule! I really hope I have lunch with my friends D: My friend wants to meet new people, and I'm pretty terrified of them. I want atleast one person I know in every class, so that I have someone to sit next to. It's just comforting knowing your not alone. Atleast to me it is, I dunno about other people. Cause my friend's all, "Eh, I don't really care about anything but lunch. I'm gonna meet tons of new people! :D" While I'm like, "OHCRAP. RUNNNN." Cause I can be quite shy. If you know me, you prolly just laughed and went, "PAH! Lies!" But I am, in front of people I don't know, and adults. I get all quiet and awkward e.e In front of my friends I'm bubbly and hyper and clumsy and stupid and annoying. :P
But there are things I'm looking forward to. Like the guys. And seeing my friends everyday. And the laptops.
But hey, lets face it, mostly the guys xD
My friend's always annoyed with me cause according to her I'm guy scouting 24/7 :P
Ohh, and I got a journal. :P Mainly for blogging on the go. I don't know why, but my little blog's important to me. I don't care if anyone reads it, it's more for me than anyone else. I just like to talk. xD And there are things I can't really tell people. And they go here :> Or atleast, they used to. My last blog had EVERYTHING in it. What I thought of people, what they did, who I liked, etc. Not like just a whole thing of me talking about people, but it had some opinions in it that I wouldn't want anyone I knew to know. Now a few people I know read my blog, so I can't really put it in here. Not that I don't trust those people, cause I totally do. They're my closest friends, and they're the ones I can trust with pretty much anything. There are three of them, I believe :P I gave my other friend the link, but she hasn't looked at it yet. And I think all three have pretty much dropped my blog. But that's fine ^^ I always end up telling two of them pretty much whatever's in here, and I don't talk to the third much, but we're good friends. At least, I think we are? I hope so o.o;
Eimmur knows everything before anyone else does, though. Cause I talk to her the most out of anyone I know, even though I never see her anymore. Tear. ;[ She's my girlfrannn. We got pregnant together, and had miscarriages together, and talked about her manly feet when it got quiet together, and I helped her through her lollipop problem that she doesn't remember, and she's QUEEN, betch xD Ohh, I love her, Lol.
Kim-A-Kwee is the one I talk to about girl stuff, and guys xD Unless they're Asian, that's Eimmurs department. Cause Asian guys are HOT.
But anyway.
Kim and I stay up for hours talking whenever we have sleepovers x] Cause she's my soulmate xP
Kim's my soulmate, Emma's my girlfriend, and Andrea's my wife. We adopted Amelia, who is married to Devin, who is married to Kim. Devin's dating Andrea [The only REAL relationship in this xD], and Tanner is Devin and Amelia's child. Joseph's the wierd uncle, and Kim adopted Makayla, I adopted India, and I declared Matias as my long lost brother even though he wanted no part in this. Brooke and Kodie decided to marry eachother, and then Andrea got married to Tanner. So she's cheating on me with Tanner, and my own son. Who's cheating on HER with both our daughters. Lol. Our family is really screwed up :D
But I love mah wifey. And my girlfrann, and my soulmate xD This started because we did a president thing, where we chose a president or a first lady and wrote a speech that they may have given, but didn't. I was Abe Lincoln [I know, I know. It was the only book I had and I was out of time :c], and Andrea was Mrs. Lincoln xD So we were married. Amelia and Devin were Mister and Misses Adams, with Tanner as their son. The rest of it formed when we adopted Amelia, and Devin became our son in law and Tanner became our grandson. Then Devin married Kim somehow, and she also became my soulmate, and Emma was always my girlfriend, long before this. Joseph added himself as the wierd uncle, though nobody knows who's uncle he is. xD Then Kim adopted and I adopted and I forced Matias into it. Brooke, Kodie, and Tanner marrying Andrea happened when people atempted to make a new one, though it failed. Lol, I just realized Andrea married our grandson.
I'm thirsty. D: I shall be right back. Even though you wouldn't know I was gone if I didn't tell you. So HA. RANDOM HA.
I'm baaack! I found my tiny mug, too! :D I love ittt. It's black and green and TINY! It doesn't hold much, so I'm always going back for more, but it's so cute! :3 I thought I'd lost it. D: It comes with a little green spoon <3 Cuuute.
Ohh, and I have a doughnut peach! Quite possibly my favorite food. Ooh, I love how the Q's look on this. They look all fancy :3
Oh, I was looking through my yearbook last night, and a certain girl that I kind of hate, and kind of like, signed it "Blah blah blah, ---- [A.K.A. Rain]
Like, wtf? I'm not gonna start calling you Rain just cause you want a cooler name! And atleast spell it the cool way! D: Either Raine or Rayne. Nothing against people with the name Rain, it's a pretty cool name :]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eR7-AUmiNcA&feature=PlayList&p=D57A6210BAD4596B&index=2
Love that! Reminds me of myself, especially the beginning. What I WANT to say, but never would. My mind can be quite sarcastic and mean >.>; But I come off as nice to most people :P It takes a LOT to make me angry. And even if you succeed, I forgive people really quickly. But I can be a total bitch if I wanna be. Most people never see it. Only when you really offend me. Havierre's seen it, like once, when he insulted my hot pink tutu xD Which, looking back on it, doesn't seem very unreasonable. But at the time I was in love with that tutu. >.>; I don't think Kim's ever seen it. Eimmur has. I went through this phase of total anger e.e; No smilies, so LOL's, nothing. Like every time we talked I was just grrr. That lasted like, two weeks. Not cause we were fighting or anything, but just cause I was in a bad mood. I think that was one of the times when Vince had just left again. Oh, we're broken up again. Er, mostly, I think. Dunno if I told you all that we were back together? We were. Cause he was all, "I miss you ];" And I was all, "Aww! D: I miss you too." And then he was all, "...Why'd you break up with me?" And I was all, "I dunno, things were just... Different." And then he was all, "Well, do you wanna try again?" And then I was like, "Kinda. I mean, I really care about you, but, I dunno."
And there was more, but that was pretty much it. Summary, of course. I didn't save the conversation. :P I have one, though xD It was pretty hilarious. About my goat babies ;] I don't know if I've told you that story.
Somehow I gained the name Supreme Goat Lord. That's what Eimmur called me xP That or Jeezus. It's in here, so just read this xD
Vinny is available 11:24 pm
::Dejame llorar:: 3h and 6m ago Comment
Sydney 11:24 pm
(11:24:12 PM): Hi Vinny. ^^
Vinny 11:24 pm
(11:24:44 PM): Hey Syd.
Sydney 11:25 pm
(11:25:24 PM): How're you? :3 I haven't talked to you in forever! D:
Vinny 11:26 pm
(11:26:30 PM): I'm Fine I Guess. And I Know. Missed You Alot. <33
Sydney 11:28 pm
(11:28:03 PM): I missed you tooo! :c I didn't wanna bug you, but my friend and I somehow started talking about you and goat babies... o.o; So I wanted to talk to you. <3
Vinny 11:29 pm
(11:29:10 PM): LMFAO. Talking About Me? But Syd. You Dont Ever Bug Me. >.> And You never Talk To Me When I'm On. D: And LOLOL@ Goat Babies. <3
Sydney 11:34 pm
(11:34:25 PM): Yus. :P It started out with me being the Supreme Goat Lord, and then she said I should be a goat for Halloween. Then she was gonna be the goat butt so that she could kick people with our awesome goatly legs. :P But I could only find one person goat costumes, and she'd be blind. D: Then I found a picture of a guy with goat horns and I was like, "BAHA. Goat maaan!" and she was all, "Psh. He's ugly. D;" And so I was all, "Nuh uh!" then I found a picture of a toddler in a goat costume and I was like, "You know what, you're right. THIS is one sexy goat!" and then she laughed and I was like, "Yay my toddler goats make you laugh. :D BUT IT'S NOT MINE." and she was like, "Psh kay I didn't think Vinny was a goat anyway xP" and then we got into how I would explain to my dad how I got pregnant with goat babies. So yeah. xP And I'm sorry! :c I don't wanna annoy you, and I figured if you wanted to talk to me you'd message me. D;
Vinny 11:36 pm
(11:36:46 PM): LOLOLOL. Glad She Didnt Think I Was A Goat. xD And Its Fine Love. I've Just been Worried About Some Stuff. And..I'm Glad Your Doing Okay. But Anytime You Message Me. I'll Reply. You Never Annoy Me.
ZeBellieFairy 11:41 pm
(11:41:20 PM): Aw. Well, I hope you're okay and all. :c Don't stress yourself out too much. D: And mmkay. <3 I'm glad. :3 My goat banter would bug the heck outta most people. xP Ily. <3
Vinny (OnlyVin) is available 11:43 pm
::Dejame llorar:: 3h and 25m ago Comment
Vinny 11:43 pm
(11:43:19 PM): Bad Connection o-o
Sydney 11:43 pm
(11:43:37 PM): Don't worry about it, my internet fails on me all the time. x3
Vinny 11:43 pm
(11:43:46 PM): Anyways. I love You.O: Oh Hows Your Mom And Stuff @-@ Hope She's Doing Fine.
Then there's some personal stuff, and some random talk about my mom. :P Aaaand it picks back up here, after an issue e.e:
Sydney 12:36 am
(12:36:06 AM): But I want to help you. :c Any problem of yours is a problem of mine, as cheesy as that may sound. And good, I would die without my goat man. <3
Vinny 12:37 am
(12:37:22 AM): xDD Even If It's Cheesy, I Still Love It When You Say Things Like That. o.o So I'm A Goat man Now xDD <333 I'll be fine. I'll Go To The Police..And It'll All Be Okay
Sydney 12:42 am
(12:42:41 AM): Aww. x3 I'm glad <3 Yes you're a goat man :P You can be the Supreme Goat Lord and I'll be the Supreme Goat Queen. xP And mmkay. <3 As long as you're okay.
Vinny (OnlyVin) is available 12:42 am
::Dejame llorar:: 4h and 25m ago Comment
Vinny 12:43 am
(12:43:40 AM): xDD Can We Have Goat Babies? o.o <33 xDD . And I'll Be Fine.
Sydney 12:48 am
(12:48:02 AM): Yes. xD Our goat babies would be adorable. <33 xP They'd look just like you. ^^ Or as close as a goat can get to you. =P
Vinny 12:48 am
(12:48:51 AM): xDDDD LMFAO. I Bet They Will<55 I Mean..The Mom Is Goregeous..<3
Sydney 12:50 am
(12:50:48 AM): Aw. <3 You're so sweet. But, I don't think a blondish yellow goat would be so pretty xD
Vinny 1:03 am
(1:03:49 AM): LMFAO.. xDDD I think It Would. ANd ..What About If They Come Half Human?
Sydney 1:05 am
(1:05:44 AM): xD That'd be... Interesting :P They'd be all furry and they'd have hooves xP And horns. Poor goat babies, we'd have to homeschool them or something. x3
Vinny 1:08 am
(1:08:09 AM): LOLOL. Yeah C: They'll be So Cute. And And We Get To Teach them And Stuff.. And They'll Be So FLuffy..And @-@ God I Wanna Hold On
(1:08:13 AM): one*
Sydney 1:15 am
(1:15:18 AM): xD They would be. :3 And that'd be fun xD "Billy, go do your homework! Mommy and daddy are busy. >.>" "...Dad, why are you on top of mom?" Andand we have goats heeere! :D At this kiddie amusement park. xP Exploding goats, or alteast that's what my dad calls them. If you scare them they faint o.o
Vinny 1:17 am
(1:17:15 AM): LMFAO@ "...Dad, why are you on top of mom?" xDDD <3 I Guess Being ontop Is Nice XD I Didnt Know That..They'll Faint? xDD
Vinny is available 1:18 am
Sydney&Vin's Goat Babies<3 ]"...Dad, why are you on top of mom?"
Sydney 1:21 am
(1:21:12 AM): xD Yus. Otherwise it'll look like I'm trying to rape you or something. No rape infront of the goat babies. :P And they do! It's wierd. They get all stiff and their legs lock up and they fall over o.o But it's funny xP
Vinny 1:22 am
(1:22:58 AM): LOLOLOL! I Wanna scare A Goat. o.o I'd Laugh xD. >.> YouCanRapeMeAnytime. Doesnt Have To be You Know <33
Sydney 1:24 am
(1:24:36 AM): xD Ok, I'll keep that in mind. :P Not in front of the goat babies, though. That would scar them for life. D: And it's fun xD They're just like THUMP. No more goat. x3
Vinny 1:26 am
(1:26:57 AM): XDDD True..Cause If We Scare Them.. We'll Have To Make More. xDDD
Sydney 1:29 am
(1:29:01 AM): xD Yup. x3 But, we'd already kind of be working on that, wouldn't we? :P
WE JOKE, PEOPLE. WE JOKE. No rape. xD But yeahh. See why I miss the way it was? It was so fun x_x I just thought that convo was hilarious so I saved it. xP He could be so sweet. D:
I'ma go now, I have orientation in the morning, in like seven or eight hours. Not that I'ma sleep, but... xP
Toodles!
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Hellooo. So, I haven't been updating my blog lately. Go back and read the last three posts so that you're caught up. :P
Went skating yesterday, it was a lot of fun. There was a creepy dude that was staring at my friend, then he talked to me and bumped into me. o.o But he didn't bug us after that.
I spent the night at Kim's house the night before, so my dad came and picked us up to take us. We had some reeeally hilarious moments xD We were the first ones at the skating rink, but my friends were outside so I waited near the door while Kim was trying to re-learn skating. And believe me, it was HARD! I hadn't skated in years, and I used to be good at it. I could barely walk at first. By the end I was okay, though. :P
But anyway, I was standing at the door and these two girls walked up to me and said I was pretty and asked me if I wanted to skate with them. o.o So I said yes, cause I'll skate with anyone under 20 that says I'm pretty. xP I fell on my butt xD They helped me, though, and we went around like twice before my friends got there. They dropped me off at the door, and they didn't talk to me the rest of the night.
So we just randomly skated and talked and stuff.
We saw Inception on Thursday, which was pretty good. We went to CiCi's before that and talked and whatnot. :P Sometime either earlier that week or the week before we went to Bo's, which was REALLY fun. Everyone was all happy and we played air hockey tons and laser tag. We did two games of bowling, too. I talked to my friend Tanner, who I hadn't seen in over a month. I missed him. D; He needs to go places with us more often.
I'm kind of annoyed right now. Apparently since I don't have a boyfriend, and I'm not going on dates, there's something wrong with me. My mothers exact words. And she thinks I need to be fixed. With therapy.
WHAT. THE. HELL.
I don't curse much, but that deserved it.
Anyway.
I went shopping with my grandmother on Friday, which wasn't much fun, but I got a lot of stuff. We spent $400, from Hot Topic to Wet Seal to Buckle to Kohls, and much more :P
Freshman orientation's on Friday, WAY excited about that! I can't wait for my schedule. Really nervous that I won't have any classes with my friends, though. I don't wanna be alone! D: But I am excited about meeting my teachers and whatnot.
So, I'ma go now. Watching The Librarian :P Todaloo!
Went skating yesterday, it was a lot of fun. There was a creepy dude that was staring at my friend, then he talked to me and bumped into me. o.o But he didn't bug us after that.
I spent the night at Kim's house the night before, so my dad came and picked us up to take us. We had some reeeally hilarious moments xD We were the first ones at the skating rink, but my friends were outside so I waited near the door while Kim was trying to re-learn skating. And believe me, it was HARD! I hadn't skated in years, and I used to be good at it. I could barely walk at first. By the end I was okay, though. :P
But anyway, I was standing at the door and these two girls walked up to me and said I was pretty and asked me if I wanted to skate with them. o.o So I said yes, cause I'll skate with anyone under 20 that says I'm pretty. xP I fell on my butt xD They helped me, though, and we went around like twice before my friends got there. They dropped me off at the door, and they didn't talk to me the rest of the night.
So we just randomly skated and talked and stuff.
We saw Inception on Thursday, which was pretty good. We went to CiCi's before that and talked and whatnot. :P Sometime either earlier that week or the week before we went to Bo's, which was REALLY fun. Everyone was all happy and we played air hockey tons and laser tag. We did two games of bowling, too. I talked to my friend Tanner, who I hadn't seen in over a month. I missed him. D; He needs to go places with us more often.
I'm kind of annoyed right now. Apparently since I don't have a boyfriend, and I'm not going on dates, there's something wrong with me. My mothers exact words. And she thinks I need to be fixed. With therapy.
WHAT. THE. HELL.
I don't curse much, but that deserved it.
Anyway.
I went shopping with my grandmother on Friday, which wasn't much fun, but I got a lot of stuff. We spent $400, from Hot Topic to Wet Seal to Buckle to Kohls, and much more :P
Freshman orientation's on Friday, WAY excited about that! I can't wait for my schedule. Really nervous that I won't have any classes with my friends, though. I don't wanna be alone! D: But I am excited about meeting my teachers and whatnot.
So, I'ma go now. Watching The Librarian :P Todaloo!
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Happy Saturday. <3 :]
So, Maryland is a no-go. Which saddens me :c But there’ll always be another one.
I’m in Atlanta, have been for two days. I’ve done pretty much nothing. It was a part of the plan to let my parents let me go to Maryland, but that failed. I had this really big, elaborate, week long plan all set out in my head. I was proud of it, too. It would make me feel like crap after it was over, but some of the things I was going to say in my little speech were true. But still. The guilt card works both ways. I know just how to push my moms buttons in a way to get what I want, same with my dad. I have to use seperate tactics, as my dad’s a lot harder than my mom is. My mom is the emotional one, and therefore you use emotions to get to her. My dad is the logical one, and so you have to reason with him with logic. I can be quite manipulative if I want to.
Most people think there’s not much to me, that I’m some brainless hyperactive girl who dresses weird on occasion. I seem pretty harmless. I like it that way, too. People are more careless around me and aren’t as defensive as they should be.
A random peek into the mind of the blogger. :]
Read the second Generation Dead book, loved it. Pheobe’s an idiot, though. TOMMY. Dur. Now I’m reading a book called Remember Me, by Christopher Pike. Good so far, only a few pages in. I’m multi-tasking. And being forced to listen to Lady Gaga. DJ likes to work to the radio, so I had to turn it on and it’s in my room. Er, the family room. But it’s where my cot is. Getting my headphones in a minute, I finally found them.
Going over to my half-brother and my sister in laws house tomorrow. I love them, especially Ali, she’s awesome. They have so many hilarious stories, and she’s just so funny. Ali blows glass, a newfound hobby, and Russell’s in a heavy metal band. I don’t know which one he’s in now… There was Stranger by Day and Drag the Waters before. Don’t know what he’s in now. But they hung out with Slipknot last year! Ali and Russell did, anyway. Apparently they go to tons of concerts. I wish I could see them more often, they live seven hours away. :[ But hopefully they’ll come up for a holiday this year. My other half-brother’s a hermit, and hates everyone apparently. Haven’t seen him since a wedding, either his or Russell’s. I think it was Russell’s. I don’t think I went to Danny’s. Oh well, they’re awesome. :P
Annoyed, cause I left all of my face powder concealer crap, whatever it is, in North Carolina. I have everything else though. I’ve started wearing eyeliner, never did before. And I dyed my hair red. :P I like it, nobody that’s seen it in person has really commented on it, which annoys me, cause that makes me think it looks bad and people don’t want to offend me. Ughh.
I feel like I’m avoiding everyone, but I’m really not. I haven’t talked to Emma in about two days, which is odd cause she’s pretty much my best friend. She’s the only one I talk to on a daily basis, for hours at a time, til like 5 or 6 in the morning. Haven’t seen Havierre in a little more than a week. I haven’t seen or talked to Kim in a few days, maybe four or five. Amelia’s in Connecticut. I dunno, I just feel all antisocial. I kind of go from one extreme to the other. During the school year, I barely ever went out with my friends. After school was over, we went out pretty much every day. Now I don’t see them much anymore, again.
Lately I’ve been feeling rather icky. Doing my hair and make up for no reason other than to look pretty. Nobody other than my mirror’s going to see it, anyway.
I’m kind of looking forward to high school now. Before I was terrified of it, and I guess I still am. I’m just tired of this. My life is pretty repetitive right now. Wake up, eat. Get on my laptop. Watch T.V. Talk to Emma. Sleep. Wake up. Go to Atlanta. Paint. Come back. Sleep. Wake up. Eat. Laptop. T.V. Emma. Sleep. I guess I’m just looking for something new. I miss people, and I miss laughing with people that I can see and touch and talk to outloud. I miss the sound of people’s voices. I’m scared of going to High school, but that’s a good thing to me. I want to be scared. I don’t want to be fine with everything that comes my way. Fear is new, and it’s exciting. Acceptance isn’t. Maryland is new and exciting. Atlanta isn’t. I hate boring. But I live boringly.
You know, the book Generation Dead: Kiss of Life has made me think about a lot of things. Second chances, how to take them. Life, death, afterlife, suicide, people, loss. Reactions. I do a lot of what I do for reactions. I like seeing how other people see me, and decoding facial expressions.
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Exactly why I don’t have a boyfriend. Broke up with Vince, by the way. I don’t even know why. It’s just different now than it was before. Before, all he cared about was me. He’d constantly ask me how I was and if I was okay and tell me to be careful. He’d call me Love, like British people do. I adored that. I adored him. He’d tell me he loved me at least three times every time we talked, and I honestly think he meant it. I know we’re young, and young people just think they love but they really don’t, but I think he did love me. Not a lot of people stuck by him when he was in the hospital, and I was pretty much the only one who did. I talked to him every day by email, and the past year or two by AIM. He’d become so attached to me that all you could really describe it as is love.
I don’t really know how I felt about him. Dedicated? I did care about him, a lot. But I don’t know if I loved him. Probably not, it just felt that way. I was just so attached to him. It wasn’t a charity case kind of thing, definitely not. But I don’t think it was a simple little crush, either. I don’t know.
But lately, things have changed. I have more people in my life now, and so does he. He’s been out of the hospital a lot more lately, and he’s been meeting people and making friends. And that’s awesome. But it’s just not the same anymore. He never tells me to be careful anymore, or asks how I am more than once in a conversation. And when he does it’s just out of courtesy. He tells me he loves me once, whenever one of use has to go. “I love you, bye.” He doesn’t call me love anymore, just hun. I don’t know, it’s just different. And I think I’m ready for it to end. He’s been my rock for years, but he’s also been what’s torn me down many times. One time, he tried to kill himself. I was texting him when it happened, and it killed me that I couldn’t stop him. I felt so horrible, like I wasn’t good enough. It drove me crazy. I was sitting in my bedroom for hours, bawling, counting the minutes since the last text message. I tried to talk him out of it. But after a certain message, they just stopped. There wasn’t another one. So I laid there until one in the afternoon the next day, crying and thinking about it. I felt like I just wasn’t important enough. There have been more times like that when he’s been what upset me. But he’s helped me through a lot of things, too. Like when my parents fight, or my brother goes on his rampages. Vince makes me feel safe. But I just think it’s time for it to end. We’re still friends, of course, but it’s even more different now. I know I really hurt him, and I hate it. But it needed to be done. I remember when we first started talking on AIM, and we talked on IMVU, too. We had this friend named Alex. Alex called me Cherry, and Vince called me Button. Lol. I made a yahoo account to talk to Alex, and I couldn’t think of one, so I called it Cherryflavoredbuttons :P Hah. I really miss how it used to be, like that. When everything was careless and fun and there was no drama. Then Alex was all gay for Vince. And then we started dating. Things changed, but they were still okay. Then all of this happened. x.x
Anyway. I don’t talk to people about this stuff, that’s why it all has to go here. It’s gotta go somewhere. :P People think I’m all happy and cheery.
By the way.
I know you all probably think I’m really whiny and whatnot. I’m not, I promise! D: I just usually blog when I’m feeling some kind of emotion really strongly. Either anger or sadness, mostly. Sometimes I’m really happy or excited. But I’m not gonna blog when I’m just content. “Oh, yeah. I’m good. Things are going okay. Uhm… Well, that’s it. Bye?” There’s nothing to it. So, I save it all for when I’m motivated. I promise I’m not this whiny when I’m talking to people. I’m usually pretty cheery :P I’m always happy when you talk to me in person. If I’m texting you or I’m IMing you, I might not be as happy. But usually I am.
So, anyway. Listening to The Kill by 30 Seconds to Mars. Saw the song in a commercial for some “Edge” CD. I liked it, so I YouTube’d it. Oh, anyone else notice YouTube was down for a few minutes a couple of days ago? It was for Emma and I, at least. Wouldn’t let me log in, before it went down. Then the whole site died. e.e; ‘Tis back. But that was scary. When YouTube is dead, you KNOW something’s wrong with the world.
Urgh, I hate this radio! There are NO ‘rock’ stations here. What I listen to isn’t really rock, but I don’t know what else to describe it as. It’s not punk, like Kim says. It’s not screamo anymore, like I used to listen to. It’s not heavy metal. The radio station calls it rock. But it’s not. The odd crap the rest of my friends listen to is rock. According to them, at least. I do like screamo and heavy metal, though. Alesana’s the perfect example. I’ll always love them :P Lately it’ been a song by The Sick Puppies, Three Days Grace, Rise Against, this song by 30 Seconds to Mars, and some random stuff mixed in. But there’s nothing on this darn radio that I like :c Thank God I have this portable wifi hotspot thing. Even though it’s annoyingly slow.
Just like this blog post is annoyingly long. >.>’ I have nothing else to do. I don’t feel like talking to anyone, or getting on AIM. Wolf-Haven, ChickenSmoothie, Facebook, and Woolly-Hooves aren’t very appealing to me right now. I’m addicted to too many games :x I’ll probably end up playing solitaire. I could read, but I don’t feel like it. I don’t know why. I can’t read properly when listening to music, and I don’t want to turn it off. It’s too hot and humid outside. Thank God we don’t have anything to eat, I tend to eat when I’m bored.
I feel weird typing “Thank God”. I say it pretty casually when I’m talking out loud, but typing it makes me think about it. I’m athiest, though my friend swears she could convert me if I would let her talk to me for an hour about Christianity. I’m fine where I am, though my mom hates it and my grandma would have a heart attack if she found out. Anyway, back to the weirdness. I feel wrong saying it, like I have no right. But I’m so used to it, that I don’t usually give it a second thought when I’m saying it. Oh well.
I wish someone would text me. I love getting texts, I don’t know why. Even from people I don’t want to hear from, and I’ve been trying to ignore for like, four months., People who can’t get the freaking message. –Cough, cough-. This guy that’s getting kind of freaky on me. Oh well. He’ll go away if I ignore him long enough, I hope. Anyway. I love getting texts from my FRIENDS. Random strangers are always interesting, though. It kind of creeps me out cause I don’t know how they got my number, but it’s usually a wrong number.
Woot. So now I’m hanging upside down off my cot :P This blog has taken me like, three hours to write. I’ll write some, stop, do something else, then write more. I’m sure I seem totally bipolar or schizophrenic, my mood changes so much.
My hair’s getting quite messy, I’ve been flopping around so much x.x OOOH. I bought a hat! I never wear hats. But my mom screwed up my hair, so I had to get one. It’s like a mobster hat >:3 Black, with a black satin band around it. Like the hats Neal Caffrey wears. Ooh, Neal Caffrey <3 White Collar started Tuesday. Pretty Little Liars was on Tuesday, too! OHMYGOSH. I can’t believe that! The ending! I can’t wait for Tuesday. I thought Emily and Tobi made such a cute couple, too! D: URGHH. Darn him. x.x And Mr. Fitz totally needs to get over it and get back with Aria. I don’t care how old they are. D:<
Blurgh. Still really bored ;o; I shall get on Facebook. Nobody ever messages me, anyway. e.e; Not to talk.
Oh, and I’ma paint my nails. Black, of course. With my little vial of Hot Topic nail polish <3 I love that store so much.
Excited about my shopping spree with my grandma. :] We’re hitting the malls in Charlotte, which obviously have more than our “Mall”. Back to school clothes shopping. <3 The only thing school is good for, other than the people.
Ohkay, nails are painted. Watch me screw them up as I type, because I’m too impatient to let them dry :] My right hand is already dead, since that’s the one I use to paint them and I can do pretty much nothing with my left. I’m jealous of people who can use both, their nails must be perfect. :[
I’ve moved on to This is War by 30 Seconds to Mars. I like et. <3
My foot’s been asleep for like, half an hour. Lol.
See? Before I was all, “Rawr, depressing!” and now I’m all, “HUR HURRR, FEET!”
I tell you whut.
I’m hyper now. <3
There are two sides of me that most people don’t see: My serious side [Fer cereal!], and my uber hyper side. Eimmurloo has seen both :P Kim-A-Kwee has seen both. Most people assume they’ve seen my ultra hyperness, but they have not! I’m just like “NOODLES!” right now. I call my dog Noodles sometimes <3 I don’t know why, her name’s Trixie? o.o; I’m naming my next dog Noodles. :D I love that smiley <3 ;) <--- I felt like using the winky face, since I never do. Hulooo. <3 Ultra long blog! Hurrah! I’ma give you an e-cookie if you read my little novella :P
Weeeeell, I think I’m done. My nails are done, yay! ^^
Todolooo! :D
So, Maryland is a no-go. Which saddens me :c But there’ll always be another one.
I’m in Atlanta, have been for two days. I’ve done pretty much nothing. It was a part of the plan to let my parents let me go to Maryland, but that failed. I had this really big, elaborate, week long plan all set out in my head. I was proud of it, too. It would make me feel like crap after it was over, but some of the things I was going to say in my little speech were true. But still. The guilt card works both ways. I know just how to push my moms buttons in a way to get what I want, same with my dad. I have to use seperate tactics, as my dad’s a lot harder than my mom is. My mom is the emotional one, and therefore you use emotions to get to her. My dad is the logical one, and so you have to reason with him with logic. I can be quite manipulative if I want to.
Most people think there’s not much to me, that I’m some brainless hyperactive girl who dresses weird on occasion. I seem pretty harmless. I like it that way, too. People are more careless around me and aren’t as defensive as they should be.
A random peek into the mind of the blogger. :]
Read the second Generation Dead book, loved it. Pheobe’s an idiot, though. TOMMY. Dur. Now I’m reading a book called Remember Me, by Christopher Pike. Good so far, only a few pages in. I’m multi-tasking. And being forced to listen to Lady Gaga. DJ likes to work to the radio, so I had to turn it on and it’s in my room. Er, the family room. But it’s where my cot is. Getting my headphones in a minute, I finally found them.
Going over to my half-brother and my sister in laws house tomorrow. I love them, especially Ali, she’s awesome. They have so many hilarious stories, and she’s just so funny. Ali blows glass, a newfound hobby, and Russell’s in a heavy metal band. I don’t know which one he’s in now… There was Stranger by Day and Drag the Waters before. Don’t know what he’s in now. But they hung out with Slipknot last year! Ali and Russell did, anyway. Apparently they go to tons of concerts. I wish I could see them more often, they live seven hours away. :[ But hopefully they’ll come up for a holiday this year. My other half-brother’s a hermit, and hates everyone apparently. Haven’t seen him since a wedding, either his or Russell’s. I think it was Russell’s. I don’t think I went to Danny’s. Oh well, they’re awesome. :P
Annoyed, cause I left all of my face powder concealer crap, whatever it is, in North Carolina. I have everything else though. I’ve started wearing eyeliner, never did before. And I dyed my hair red. :P I like it, nobody that’s seen it in person has really commented on it, which annoys me, cause that makes me think it looks bad and people don’t want to offend me. Ughh.
I feel like I’m avoiding everyone, but I’m really not. I haven’t talked to Emma in about two days, which is odd cause she’s pretty much my best friend. She’s the only one I talk to on a daily basis, for hours at a time, til like 5 or 6 in the morning. Haven’t seen Havierre in a little more than a week. I haven’t seen or talked to Kim in a few days, maybe four or five. Amelia’s in Connecticut. I dunno, I just feel all antisocial. I kind of go from one extreme to the other. During the school year, I barely ever went out with my friends. After school was over, we went out pretty much every day. Now I don’t see them much anymore, again.
Lately I’ve been feeling rather icky. Doing my hair and make up for no reason other than to look pretty. Nobody other than my mirror’s going to see it, anyway.
I’m kind of looking forward to high school now. Before I was terrified of it, and I guess I still am. I’m just tired of this. My life is pretty repetitive right now. Wake up, eat. Get on my laptop. Watch T.V. Talk to Emma. Sleep. Wake up. Go to Atlanta. Paint. Come back. Sleep. Wake up. Eat. Laptop. T.V. Emma. Sleep. I guess I’m just looking for something new. I miss people, and I miss laughing with people that I can see and touch and talk to outloud. I miss the sound of people’s voices. I’m scared of going to High school, but that’s a good thing to me. I want to be scared. I don’t want to be fine with everything that comes my way. Fear is new, and it’s exciting. Acceptance isn’t. Maryland is new and exciting. Atlanta isn’t. I hate boring. But I live boringly.
You know, the book Generation Dead: Kiss of Life has made me think about a lot of things. Second chances, how to take them. Life, death, afterlife, suicide, people, loss. Reactions. I do a lot of what I do for reactions. I like seeing how other people see me, and decoding facial expressions.
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Exactly why I don’t have a boyfriend. Broke up with Vince, by the way. I don’t even know why. It’s just different now than it was before. Before, all he cared about was me. He’d constantly ask me how I was and if I was okay and tell me to be careful. He’d call me Love, like British people do. I adored that. I adored him. He’d tell me he loved me at least three times every time we talked, and I honestly think he meant it. I know we’re young, and young people just think they love but they really don’t, but I think he did love me. Not a lot of people stuck by him when he was in the hospital, and I was pretty much the only one who did. I talked to him every day by email, and the past year or two by AIM. He’d become so attached to me that all you could really describe it as is love.
I don’t really know how I felt about him. Dedicated? I did care about him, a lot. But I don’t know if I loved him. Probably not, it just felt that way. I was just so attached to him. It wasn’t a charity case kind of thing, definitely not. But I don’t think it was a simple little crush, either. I don’t know.
But lately, things have changed. I have more people in my life now, and so does he. He’s been out of the hospital a lot more lately, and he’s been meeting people and making friends. And that’s awesome. But it’s just not the same anymore. He never tells me to be careful anymore, or asks how I am more than once in a conversation. And when he does it’s just out of courtesy. He tells me he loves me once, whenever one of use has to go. “I love you, bye.” He doesn’t call me love anymore, just hun. I don’t know, it’s just different. And I think I’m ready for it to end. He’s been my rock for years, but he’s also been what’s torn me down many times. One time, he tried to kill himself. I was texting him when it happened, and it killed me that I couldn’t stop him. I felt so horrible, like I wasn’t good enough. It drove me crazy. I was sitting in my bedroom for hours, bawling, counting the minutes since the last text message. I tried to talk him out of it. But after a certain message, they just stopped. There wasn’t another one. So I laid there until one in the afternoon the next day, crying and thinking about it. I felt like I just wasn’t important enough. There have been more times like that when he’s been what upset me. But he’s helped me through a lot of things, too. Like when my parents fight, or my brother goes on his rampages. Vince makes me feel safe. But I just think it’s time for it to end. We’re still friends, of course, but it’s even more different now. I know I really hurt him, and I hate it. But it needed to be done. I remember when we first started talking on AIM, and we talked on IMVU, too. We had this friend named Alex. Alex called me Cherry, and Vince called me Button. Lol. I made a yahoo account to talk to Alex, and I couldn’t think of one, so I called it Cherryflavoredbuttons :P Hah. I really miss how it used to be, like that. When everything was careless and fun and there was no drama. Then Alex was all gay for Vince. And then we started dating. Things changed, but they were still okay. Then all of this happened. x.x
Anyway. I don’t talk to people about this stuff, that’s why it all has to go here. It’s gotta go somewhere. :P People think I’m all happy and cheery.
By the way.
I know you all probably think I’m really whiny and whatnot. I’m not, I promise! D: I just usually blog when I’m feeling some kind of emotion really strongly. Either anger or sadness, mostly. Sometimes I’m really happy or excited. But I’m not gonna blog when I’m just content. “Oh, yeah. I’m good. Things are going okay. Uhm… Well, that’s it. Bye?” There’s nothing to it. So, I save it all for when I’m motivated. I promise I’m not this whiny when I’m talking to people. I’m usually pretty cheery :P I’m always happy when you talk to me in person. If I’m texting you or I’m IMing you, I might not be as happy. But usually I am.
So, anyway. Listening to The Kill by 30 Seconds to Mars. Saw the song in a commercial for some “Edge” CD. I liked it, so I YouTube’d it. Oh, anyone else notice YouTube was down for a few minutes a couple of days ago? It was for Emma and I, at least. Wouldn’t let me log in, before it went down. Then the whole site died. e.e; ‘Tis back. But that was scary. When YouTube is dead, you KNOW something’s wrong with the world.
Urgh, I hate this radio! There are NO ‘rock’ stations here. What I listen to isn’t really rock, but I don’t know what else to describe it as. It’s not punk, like Kim says. It’s not screamo anymore, like I used to listen to. It’s not heavy metal. The radio station calls it rock. But it’s not. The odd crap the rest of my friends listen to is rock. According to them, at least. I do like screamo and heavy metal, though. Alesana’s the perfect example. I’ll always love them :P Lately it’ been a song by The Sick Puppies, Three Days Grace, Rise Against, this song by 30 Seconds to Mars, and some random stuff mixed in. But there’s nothing on this darn radio that I like :c Thank God I have this portable wifi hotspot thing. Even though it’s annoyingly slow.
Just like this blog post is annoyingly long. >.>’ I have nothing else to do. I don’t feel like talking to anyone, or getting on AIM. Wolf-Haven, ChickenSmoothie, Facebook, and Woolly-Hooves aren’t very appealing to me right now. I’m addicted to too many games :x I’ll probably end up playing solitaire. I could read, but I don’t feel like it. I don’t know why. I can’t read properly when listening to music, and I don’t want to turn it off. It’s too hot and humid outside. Thank God we don’t have anything to eat, I tend to eat when I’m bored.
I feel weird typing “Thank God”. I say it pretty casually when I’m talking out loud, but typing it makes me think about it. I’m athiest, though my friend swears she could convert me if I would let her talk to me for an hour about Christianity. I’m fine where I am, though my mom hates it and my grandma would have a heart attack if she found out. Anyway, back to the weirdness. I feel wrong saying it, like I have no right. But I’m so used to it, that I don’t usually give it a second thought when I’m saying it. Oh well.
I wish someone would text me. I love getting texts, I don’t know why. Even from people I don’t want to hear from, and I’ve been trying to ignore for like, four months., People who can’t get the freaking message. –Cough, cough-. This guy that’s getting kind of freaky on me. Oh well. He’ll go away if I ignore him long enough, I hope. Anyway. I love getting texts from my FRIENDS. Random strangers are always interesting, though. It kind of creeps me out cause I don’t know how they got my number, but it’s usually a wrong number.
Woot. So now I’m hanging upside down off my cot :P This blog has taken me like, three hours to write. I’ll write some, stop, do something else, then write more. I’m sure I seem totally bipolar or schizophrenic, my mood changes so much.
My hair’s getting quite messy, I’ve been flopping around so much x.x OOOH. I bought a hat! I never wear hats. But my mom screwed up my hair, so I had to get one. It’s like a mobster hat >:3 Black, with a black satin band around it. Like the hats Neal Caffrey wears. Ooh, Neal Caffrey <3 White Collar started Tuesday. Pretty Little Liars was on Tuesday, too! OHMYGOSH. I can’t believe that! The ending! I can’t wait for Tuesday. I thought Emily and Tobi made such a cute couple, too! D: URGHH. Darn him. x.x And Mr. Fitz totally needs to get over it and get back with Aria. I don’t care how old they are. D:<
Blurgh. Still really bored ;o; I shall get on Facebook. Nobody ever messages me, anyway. e.e; Not to talk.
Oh, and I’ma paint my nails. Black, of course. With my little vial of Hot Topic nail polish <3 I love that store so much.
Excited about my shopping spree with my grandma. :] We’re hitting the malls in Charlotte, which obviously have more than our “Mall”. Back to school clothes shopping. <3 The only thing school is good for, other than the people.
Ohkay, nails are painted. Watch me screw them up as I type, because I’m too impatient to let them dry :] My right hand is already dead, since that’s the one I use to paint them and I can do pretty much nothing with my left. I’m jealous of people who can use both, their nails must be perfect. :[
I’ve moved on to This is War by 30 Seconds to Mars. I like et. <3
My foot’s been asleep for like, half an hour. Lol.
See? Before I was all, “Rawr, depressing!” and now I’m all, “HUR HURRR, FEET!”
I tell you whut.
I’m hyper now. <3
There are two sides of me that most people don’t see: My serious side [Fer cereal!], and my uber hyper side. Eimmurloo has seen both :P Kim-A-Kwee has seen both. Most people assume they’ve seen my ultra hyperness, but they have not! I’m just like “NOODLES!” right now. I call my dog Noodles sometimes <3 I don’t know why, her name’s Trixie? o.o; I’m naming my next dog Noodles. :D I love that smiley <3 ;) <--- I felt like using the winky face, since I never do. Hulooo. <3 Ultra long blog! Hurrah! I’ma give you an e-cookie if you read my little novella :P
Weeeeell, I think I’m done. My nails are done, yay! ^^
Todolooo! :D
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I’m working on reading Remember Me [Finished that, I’m on to the second book, but I have one that has three books in one so to me it’s still Remember Me]. I stopped reading like fifteen minutes ago. It left me in this really weird mood. Like nothing matters, and it won’t ever matter. It made me think a lot, about religion and after life and death and whatnot. Then my brother comes barging in and kills my inner peace.
Oh well. xD
So, I kind of love my half-brother!
According to him I can get free tickets AND backstage passes to any of the bands concerts on a certain list, since the company he works for provides amps for them or something. Woot, I love him! So, whenever Linkin Park gets back from Europe I’ma hoping. <3 Apparently he and his wife spent time with Slipknot on their tour bus last year. Sweeeet. I don’t listen to them much, but still.
So, I’m excited. Hoping to take Emma to a concert. :3 I REALLY wanted to go to a Forever The Sickest Kids concert [On the list!], but unless someone drives us to Idaho or Texas, it’s a no go. D: Cause then they’ll be in Great Britain. Urghh! Mayday Parade and Hawthorne Heights are on my list, too. I’m gonna check out Coheed and Cambria and Attack! Attack!, cause I’ve heard of them but never listened to their music.
Really loving 30 Seconds To Mars, btw. <3
I spent a few hours at Russell and Ali’s house, my half-brother and his wife. THEY HAVE AMAZING CATS. They’re Ragdoll cats, and they’re the fattest and fluffiest things you’ve ever seen. One peed on my brother, too, so that’s a plus! :D I really really want one now, they’re sooo soft. And it’s like you can barely hold them, their fat and fluff just spreads out all over your lap! You can’t really tell what’s fat and what’s fluff, though. And they have adorable dogs, too <3 Bulldog terrier mixes :] They’re so hyper xD They run around and attack play with eachother, and you can’t hold them cause they’ll be too busy trying to eat your fingers. :P But they’re really cute.
I love their house, too! They have this huuuge flat screen that has like, all of this amazing technology and whatnot and a Playstation 3 thinger mobob, and he controls the TV with a game controller :o It’s epic. Surroundsound, too.
Ali blows glass, so she made me some beads and a pendant :3 One’s green with blue stripes, and one’s blue with silver stripes. The pendant is blue and green mixed, with some random red streaks in there from oxidation or something. She does that for a living, makes beads. The one’s she’s making now have real gold in them, they’re pretty cool looking. She makes them for some company.
We had burgers and mac & cheese, potato salad, and deviled eggs. Ali makes AWESOME deviled eggs. Lane and Russell went down to the pool for like an hour, so I sat with one of the fluffy cats, Baxter, watching Life, with all of the fishes. <3 SUCH A FLUFFY CAT!!
Sorry. I’m excited, incase you can’t tell :P
Gonna go read some more and play with my llamas. <3 Tata! :]
Oh well. xD
So, I kind of love my half-brother!
According to him I can get free tickets AND backstage passes to any of the bands concerts on a certain list, since the company he works for provides amps for them or something. Woot, I love him! So, whenever Linkin Park gets back from Europe I’ma hoping. <3 Apparently he and his wife spent time with Slipknot on their tour bus last year. Sweeeet. I don’t listen to them much, but still.
So, I’m excited. Hoping to take Emma to a concert. :3 I REALLY wanted to go to a Forever The Sickest Kids concert [On the list!], but unless someone drives us to Idaho or Texas, it’s a no go. D: Cause then they’ll be in Great Britain. Urghh! Mayday Parade and Hawthorne Heights are on my list, too. I’m gonna check out Coheed and Cambria and Attack! Attack!, cause I’ve heard of them but never listened to their music.
Really loving 30 Seconds To Mars, btw. <3
I spent a few hours at Russell and Ali’s house, my half-brother and his wife. THEY HAVE AMAZING CATS. They’re Ragdoll cats, and they’re the fattest and fluffiest things you’ve ever seen. One peed on my brother, too, so that’s a plus! :D I really really want one now, they’re sooo soft. And it’s like you can barely hold them, their fat and fluff just spreads out all over your lap! You can’t really tell what’s fat and what’s fluff, though. And they have adorable dogs, too <3 Bulldog terrier mixes :] They’re so hyper xD They run around and attack play with eachother, and you can’t hold them cause they’ll be too busy trying to eat your fingers. :P But they’re really cute.
I love their house, too! They have this huuuge flat screen that has like, all of this amazing technology and whatnot and a Playstation 3 thinger mobob, and he controls the TV with a game controller :o It’s epic. Surroundsound, too.
Ali blows glass, so she made me some beads and a pendant :3 One’s green with blue stripes, and one’s blue with silver stripes. The pendant is blue and green mixed, with some random red streaks in there from oxidation or something. She does that for a living, makes beads. The one’s she’s making now have real gold in them, they’re pretty cool looking. She makes them for some company.
We had burgers and mac & cheese, potato salad, and deviled eggs. Ali makes AWESOME deviled eggs. Lane and Russell went down to the pool for like an hour, so I sat with one of the fluffy cats, Baxter, watching Life, with all of the fishes. <3 SUCH A FLUFFY CAT!!
Sorry. I’m excited, incase you can’t tell :P
Gonna go read some more and play with my llamas. <3 Tata! :]
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So I know I've abandoned you, my little blog. I write entries and just save them in word. So, I'ma add those now, then put up a recent one. Just figured I'd tell you what's going on. :P
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Ughh. So, everything was going awesome till about half an hour ago. Not going into detail, for those of you that actually know me and don't need to think my family's as freakish as they already do. Lets just say there's a hole in the wall, ketsup everywhere, and my mom's sobbing. Before that, I was talking to Vince and watching America's got Talent, and eating marshmallows. Before that I was talking to Emma. So everything's gone downhill.
In other news.
Going shopping with my grandma for back to school clothes or whatever, $200. Excited about that :] Of course shopping with her basically means my grandma sitting on a bench while I roam in Hot Topic Heaven. :P
I've gotta go, my mom needs me. And I've gotta go clean up the ketsup.
Bye.
In other news.
Going shopping with my grandma for back to school clothes or whatever, $200. Excited about that :] Of course shopping with her basically means my grandma sitting on a bench while I roam in Hot Topic Heaven. :P
I've gotta go, my mom needs me. And I've gotta go clean up the ketsup.
Bye.
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Kay, so I'm freaking out now. Lane brought home a six pack of beer. My mom called him an alcoholic [he is]. Lane said DJ got it for him [he didn't]. Then Lane flips out and runs downstairs, slamming things and screaming. Apparently DJ had tried to kill himself. I went upstairs to see if he was okay, and he was sitting there with an exacto blade in his hand. I got it from him, and apparently Lane's on the deck hanging off it going all, "IF I DON'T SEE HIM I'MA KILL MYSELF!!!" So he gets off the deck, and after some talking he goes back upstairs and lights a firecracker. It sounded like a gun, and he said he was going to shoot himself. So, of course, my mother passes out on the ground cause of her blood pressure. So I go help my mom, and then Lane comes downstairs, all "You didn't even come see if I was okay!!" Well, mom was kind of passed out, and honestly? I care about her waaaay more than him. So then we talked and whatnot, and he got drunk.
Ughhh.
So now I'm all freaked out. And it's wierd, cause I feel so stiff. I'm shaking, and when I walk it's hard, and breathing feels wierd. But, I'll be fine. Just felt like talking about it...
Bye.
Ughhh.
So now I'm all freaked out. And it's wierd, cause I feel so stiff. I'm shaking, and when I walk it's hard, and breathing feels wierd. But, I'll be fine. Just felt like talking about it...
Bye.
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Helloooo. It's been a few days :P
So, awesome party on the fourth. Had tons of fun, almost all of my friends were there.
When my dad was doing the really big fireworks, like mortars or whatever, one of them fell over and lit the other 20 on fire. It was really scary, cause there was a moment when I actually thought my dad could be dead. He could have died, but he dove out of the way or something and ducked for cover. I have a few craters in my yard now o.O Two places caught on fire, I'm surprised more didn't.
But yeahh.
Went uptown today with a bunch of friends. It was fun, but I felt really crappy the whole time.
Annoyed with one of my friends, too. :[ Two of them, really. But we'll be okay.
Kind of worried. Okay, REALLY worried. About stuff I have no control over, not really anyway. I guess I do, but it just doesn't work that way. Oh well.
Now my brother's freaking out and being an idiot. So, I have to go.
Bye.
So, awesome party on the fourth. Had tons of fun, almost all of my friends were there.
When my dad was doing the really big fireworks, like mortars or whatever, one of them fell over and lit the other 20 on fire. It was really scary, cause there was a moment when I actually thought my dad could be dead. He could have died, but he dove out of the way or something and ducked for cover. I have a few craters in my yard now o.O Two places caught on fire, I'm surprised more didn't.
But yeahh.
Went uptown today with a bunch of friends. It was fun, but I felt really crappy the whole time.
Annoyed with one of my friends, too. :[ Two of them, really. But we'll be okay.
Kind of worried. Okay, REALLY worried. About stuff I have no control over, not really anyway. I guess I do, but it just doesn't work that way. Oh well.
Now my brother's freaking out and being an idiot. So, I have to go.
Bye.
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My brother sucks.
He punches Steve in the car, in the shoulder, really hard. Then in Walmart he starts digging in his pockets and he's all, "I'ma stick this knife in you!!" So then he calls my dad and he's all, "Steve's threatening to call the cops on me in walmart!" and then he gets mad and throws his phone down on the ground, and says Steve did it. So he's trying to get Steve thrown out now. I swear he's high...
I hate my brother. >< I swear, if he does something stupid during the 4th of July party, I'ma kill him.
But anyway. Had an awesome day till that, went up town with three of my friends. We go out for like five or six hours, and when we come back we couldn't tell you what we did xD We do pretty much nothing. Just walking around and talking. :P
So, I'm really excited about the party. Dad's gonna get a ton of fireworks, some smaller ones for us to mess around with in the driveway, too. It's mostly gonna be my friends, and some of their parents. There'll be a few other people there, too.
Not much else to talk about... So I guess that's it. Bye <3
He punches Steve in the car, in the shoulder, really hard. Then in Walmart he starts digging in his pockets and he's all, "I'ma stick this knife in you!!" So then he calls my dad and he's all, "Steve's threatening to call the cops on me in walmart!" and then he gets mad and throws his phone down on the ground, and says Steve did it. So he's trying to get Steve thrown out now. I swear he's high...
I hate my brother. >< I swear, if he does something stupid during the 4th of July party, I'ma kill him.
But anyway. Had an awesome day till that, went up town with three of my friends. We go out for like five or six hours, and when we come back we couldn't tell you what we did xD We do pretty much nothing. Just walking around and talking. :P
So, I'm really excited about the party. Dad's gonna get a ton of fireworks, some smaller ones for us to mess around with in the driveway, too. It's mostly gonna be my friends, and some of their parents. There'll be a few other people there, too.
Not much else to talk about... So I guess that's it. Bye <3
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Okay, feeling really guilty. I don't care what I'm dealing with, please, DON'T feel bad for me, or worried about me. I hate it, and it's a waste of your time.
One little thought causes a world of problems... Ughh. This is one of those days where I wish I could just sleep forever.
It's really hot. >< And I have a party in two days, and I honestly don't know if I'll make it.
So I just feel like crap. Which I don't get, because I had a great day. Went out with a bunch of friends, one who I wish I could see more often.
I'm just gonna go now, no need to complain.
Bye. <3
One little thought causes a world of problems... Ughh. This is one of those days where I wish I could just sleep forever.
It's really hot. >< And I have a party in two days, and I honestly don't know if I'll make it.
So I just feel like crap. Which I don't get, because I had a great day. Went out with a bunch of friends, one who I wish I could see more often.
I'm just gonna go now, no need to complain.
Bye. <3
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Heya. :]
Lalala. So, Eclipse was GREAT. Any movie with tons of hot, shirtless werewolves is great. Especially Taylor Lautner. ;] Bella’s an idiot, PICK JACOB. She doesn’t deserve either of them ><
But the movie was awesome. Epic fight scene that would make even Havierre happy :P
I was so excited about it xD I was squealing for like an hour before it started. We got there half an hour early, so we were sitting in the theater for 20. Middle of the front row ;] No tall people to block Jacob’s abs for us, no siree! But Kim would accidentally bump into me with her foot, and I would just burst out laughing, for no reason. It was so fun. XD Half way through the movie, it turned upside down and the audio was backwards. It was HILARIOUS! Everyone in the theater was laughing. They sounded so weird xD It was a good movie, though. Even though NONE of it happened in the book. Not gonna spoil it for you, like I do all of the other movies I watch. :P
I’ve been listening to Breathe Carolina all day. <33 At the moment I’m listening to Velvet. Don’t look it up, Havierre, you’d hate it. But they’re pretty awesome x]
Took like, 79 pictures today xD I can’t find my favorite mascara or lipgloss, though! D: Had to use my backup. :c But they turned out okay ^^
Later in ze day: I now have a rant for you. e.e
I hate it when people want me to tell them every bit and detail of my life, and they get “So concerned” when I’m upset, but then they won’t tell me anything about THEIR lives. So, I’m not allowed to be sad, but you are? And I’M not allowed to not want to talk about it, but YOU are? Even if it’s something small and I’m being overdramatic, people are doing this so much to me now. Everyone wants to know what’s going on with me and what’s going on with Vince and “Why are you upset, Sydney?” Then whenever I try to talk about an actual PROBLEM nobody wants to listen. “That sucks. So, I’m [blah blah blah].” Ughh. I have two problems, neither of which anyone will listen to. And I really need help. But nobody cares. So I get to deal with it.
Ok, sorry. I’m just… Angry. And concerned.
Gonna shut up now.
Lalala. So, Eclipse was GREAT. Any movie with tons of hot, shirtless werewolves is great. Especially Taylor Lautner. ;] Bella’s an idiot, PICK JACOB. She doesn’t deserve either of them ><
But the movie was awesome. Epic fight scene that would make even Havierre happy :P
I was so excited about it xD I was squealing for like an hour before it started. We got there half an hour early, so we were sitting in the theater for 20. Middle of the front row ;] No tall people to block Jacob’s abs for us, no siree! But Kim would accidentally bump into me with her foot, and I would just burst out laughing, for no reason. It was so fun. XD Half way through the movie, it turned upside down and the audio was backwards. It was HILARIOUS! Everyone in the theater was laughing. They sounded so weird xD It was a good movie, though. Even though NONE of it happened in the book. Not gonna spoil it for you, like I do all of the other movies I watch. :P
I’ve been listening to Breathe Carolina all day. <33 At the moment I’m listening to Velvet. Don’t look it up, Havierre, you’d hate it. But they’re pretty awesome x]
Took like, 79 pictures today xD I can’t find my favorite mascara or lipgloss, though! D: Had to use my backup. :c But they turned out okay ^^
Later in ze day: I now have a rant for you. e.e
I hate it when people want me to tell them every bit and detail of my life, and they get “So concerned” when I’m upset, but then they won’t tell me anything about THEIR lives. So, I’m not allowed to be sad, but you are? And I’M not allowed to not want to talk about it, but YOU are? Even if it’s something small and I’m being overdramatic, people are doing this so much to me now. Everyone wants to know what’s going on with me and what’s going on with Vince and “Why are you upset, Sydney?” Then whenever I try to talk about an actual PROBLEM nobody wants to listen. “That sucks. So, I’m [blah blah blah].” Ughh. I have two problems, neither of which anyone will listen to. And I really need help. But nobody cares. So I get to deal with it.
Ok, sorry. I’m just… Angry. And concerned.
Gonna shut up now.
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Hellooo. :P So, today was pretty awesome. Many hilarious moments that don't sound nearly as funny as they were. :P Swing-texting, wallet thieving, etc. x] Oh, and ripping off peoples mustaches. xD
It was lots of fun ^^ 'Cept this creepy dude, who kept telling us to read the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution. We saw him once at the park, and just kept walking. Then we saw him by the lake, and he was all, "Hey, I saw you earlier!" and said the same thing. Logan said, "Uh, we read it in school" and he was all, "Forget school, be your own men and women!" And so we kept walking. Then we were at the gazebo thing in the lake, and the dude was just sitting behind a tree, facing the tree. Dunno if he was staring at us or doing something else, I couldn't tell. Needless to say, we left xP Apparently he's been doing that since school got out. Creeepyyyy.
Vince needs to get on AIM, I'm bored. e.e Oooh, I have a pictureee. I haven't actually seen him in like three years, but this does seem like what he'd look like. Tis a picture he has on AIM. :P
I think he's cute x] I dunno what he's doing with his hair o.o
He's officially known as my boyfriend amongst my friends. I was trying to keep it kind of a secret, since I don't know how things are going to turn out this time. But somehow Amelia found out o.O I think Kim knew. I know a-certain-person-who-will-now-be-reffered-to-as-Havierre knew, since he reads my blog. Emma knew since I told her. But that's about all. Now Logan knows, and Amelia found out. I think Daniell knows, cause Kim brought it up and Daniell was nearby and joined the convo. I think that's how Amelia found out, too. But anyway. o.o
Having a Twilight marathon tomorrow! <3 We're gonna watch Twilight, since I have it on DVD, rent New Moon, and then go see Eclipse :] Must stock up on movie snacks. Since the only soda we have is sunkist o_o Anyway, excited about that ^^
Pretty Liars is on tonight ^^ Amelia's started watching it, too x] So atleast I have someone else to talk to about it. We discussed our theories today xP The whole Allison/explosion/Jenna-being-blind thing is our main point of interest. Allison OBVIOUSLY made Jenna blind somehow. Tobi [I don't know how to spell it but I's are cooler than Y's, and some people spell it this way, so TOBI!!] I think is either related to Jenna or was dating her. Allison had something on him so he covered up for the explosion, which I think made Jenna blind. Maybe she was in the house when it happened? It's either Jenna or Tobi acting as "A" in my opinion. And WTF is up with Aria and Mr. Fitz?! I thought he didn't want to do anything with her! Then they start making out in his car in the rain?? Spencer is sooo gonna end up with her sisters ex.
OOH. And why did Tobi help Emily when her boyfriend was about to like, rape her? o_o What was he doing in the girls locker room anyway? That guy confuses me. Oh well. x.x
So, I think that's it ^^ Excited about the 4th of July party :P
Byee. <33
It was lots of fun ^^ 'Cept this creepy dude, who kept telling us to read the Declaration of Independence and the Constitution. We saw him once at the park, and just kept walking. Then we saw him by the lake, and he was all, "Hey, I saw you earlier!" and said the same thing. Logan said, "Uh, we read it in school" and he was all, "Forget school, be your own men and women!" And so we kept walking. Then we were at the gazebo thing in the lake, and the dude was just sitting behind a tree, facing the tree. Dunno if he was staring at us or doing something else, I couldn't tell. Needless to say, we left xP Apparently he's been doing that since school got out. Creeepyyyy.
Vince needs to get on AIM, I'm bored. e.e Oooh, I have a pictureee. I haven't actually seen him in like three years, but this does seem like what he'd look like. Tis a picture he has on AIM. :P
I think he's cute x] I dunno what he's doing with his hair o.o
He's officially known as my boyfriend amongst my friends. I was trying to keep it kind of a secret, since I don't know how things are going to turn out this time. But somehow Amelia found out o.O I think Kim knew. I know a-certain-person-who-will-now-be-reffered-to-as-Havierre knew, since he reads my blog. Emma knew since I told her. But that's about all. Now Logan knows, and Amelia found out. I think Daniell knows, cause Kim brought it up and Daniell was nearby and joined the convo. I think that's how Amelia found out, too. But anyway. o.o
Having a Twilight marathon tomorrow! <3 We're gonna watch Twilight, since I have it on DVD, rent New Moon, and then go see Eclipse :] Must stock up on movie snacks. Since the only soda we have is sunkist o_o Anyway, excited about that ^^
Pretty Liars is on tonight ^^ Amelia's started watching it, too x] So atleast I have someone else to talk to about it. We discussed our theories today xP The whole Allison/explosion/Jenna-being-blind thing is our main point of interest. Allison OBVIOUSLY made Jenna blind somehow. Tobi [I don't know how to spell it but I's are cooler than Y's, and some people spell it this way, so TOBI!!] I think is either related to Jenna or was dating her. Allison had something on him so he covered up for the explosion, which I think made Jenna blind. Maybe she was in the house when it happened? It's either Jenna or Tobi acting as "A" in my opinion. And WTF is up with Aria and Mr. Fitz?! I thought he didn't want to do anything with her! Then they start making out in his car in the rain?? Spencer is sooo gonna end up with her sisters ex.
OOH. And why did Tobi help Emily when her boyfriend was about to like, rape her? o_o What was he doing in the girls locker room anyway? That guy confuses me. Oh well. x.x
So, I think that's it ^^ Excited about the 4th of July party :P
Byee. <33
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OHMYGOSHI'MBORED!
On Demand hates me and won't let me watch Alice in Wonderland D; I tried to buy it like ten times, watch it show up on my bill xP It was all, "ERROOOOOR!" and we called the person and they said try again tomorrow. D}:< <---'STACHE. I was watching the preview, and I realized that the queen lady, whoever she is, and Johnny Depp were in another movie together :o Sweeney Todd. <33 That's one of my favorites :P My mother refuses to watch it because she hates blood and stuff. I think it's a pretty awesome movie >.>; Oh, and another favorite of mine is Princess Aurora. It makes me cry everytime ;o; Just so you know, it's not some kids movie- it's a Korean movie about this woman who lost her daughter. She was in a car wreck, so her little girl, like 5 or 6, stayed with her sister. The woman left her on the side of the street! D: It was so horrible, cause she was just sitting there, waiting, and then she left and was walking through this tunnel after like an hour and she started crying and she was all, "Mommmmyyy!" and it was so SAD! Her little face... D: Then some evil dude picked her up, raped her, and killed her. Then he left her in a dump. Poor baby! :c So her mom went all crazy and killed everyone involved in it. The guy who she wrecked into, her sister, some other girls mom that was abusive that made her kid sad, some legal people, and some detectives, I think. Then she got put into a mental institution, where she killed the man who killed her daughter, since he was put there, too. It was wierd watching the crazy people react to the blood. o.O But kind of funny.
Anyway, GREAT MOVIE. Even though I cry everytime I watch it/think about it. D: My brother laughed. He LAUGHED at a little girl crying and then being picked up by some creepo. I liked that little girl :c
Anyway, Korean movie, so it's subtitles if you ever watch it, even though I prolly just ruined it up there. Eh, nobody I told about it would watch it with me. e.e It is kind of horrible.
SO.
Driving test thing in two days... Scared as heck about that.
I really wanna go somewhere soon x_x But, I don't like organizing things. I just don't. e.x; I'll text people or call people and invite them, but place picking and time picking I don't like. Cause everyone wants to go somewhere different, or meet later or earlier, and it's just... Bleh. So.
The blackberries will be ripe in a few weeks :3 We have tons of blackberry bushes in our backyard. My mom always makes pie with it, even though I hate pie... My dad likes it.
I want a Corgi. D: Or something like that.
I LOVE dogs with short legs, they're just so cute!! Especially when they walk :P It's just adorable. My Longhaired Chihuahua's legs are fairly short and stubbly, but my Pomeranian's legs are quite long D; Not all fat and short and cute. But she's really fuzzy, so it's okay.
That's why I don't like big dogs. They don't fit in your lap, and their legs aren't SHORT. Sure they're cute and somewhat soft, and they're all giant so you can like hang on them and hug them without squeezing their little bodies to death, but they're just not short enough. D:
So, I guess that's it? Now I wanna watch Sweeney Todd.
Ohhh, and I'm looking forward to the next Percy Jackson movie :DD I hope it comes out soon, dunno the release date. I'm sure I'll see commercials for it sometime.
Seeing Eclipse in three days. NOTHING IN THE COMMERCIALS HAPPENED IN THE BOOKS! That dude that got bitten, and his undead army? They never existed! And apparently Bella gets pregnant in this movie? Wth!! She gets pregnant in Breaking Dawn. I guess poor little Eclipse was just too boring for them. D:<
By the way. TEAM. JACOB. CHOOSE JACOB OR WE WILL EAT YOU. We being all of his rabid fans. In the books, I liked Edward best. But in the movies? Edward sucks. Literally. No pun was intended when I typed it, but it kind of turned into one. :P But anyway. What does Edward DO? Nothing! He doesn't make her laugh, or do anything fun with her. He just whisks her away, out of the danger HE created. He's totally useless. But Jacob is all nice and funny and totally hot, and he makes her laugh, and he spends time with her doing things. Edward's obsessed with her "human experiences", but he's not giving her anything! Yeah, prom's important, but what about actually doing things? Like, Jacob fixed the bikes with her, and went to the movies with her once. What did Edward do? Let her play baseball where some freakish dude became obsessed with her and wanted to kill her. Helped throw a party where his brother tried to eat her. He does nothing but get her injured! Guhhh.
So, anyway. o_o THAT'S it. The ending earlier was a false one. >.>; Went on a tangent. Sorry. :P
So, bye. <33 Thanks for reading :P
Wow, I just re-read that, and I'm REALLY random. o_o From driving to going places to blackberries to corgies... Woww. Well, bye now! xP
On Demand hates me and won't let me watch Alice in Wonderland D; I tried to buy it like ten times, watch it show up on my bill xP It was all, "ERROOOOOR!" and we called the person and they said try again tomorrow. D}:< <---'STACHE. I was watching the preview, and I realized that the queen lady, whoever she is, and Johnny Depp were in another movie together :o Sweeney Todd. <33 That's one of my favorites :P My mother refuses to watch it because she hates blood and stuff. I think it's a pretty awesome movie >.>; Oh, and another favorite of mine is Princess Aurora. It makes me cry everytime ;o; Just so you know, it's not some kids movie- it's a Korean movie about this woman who lost her daughter. She was in a car wreck, so her little girl, like 5 or 6, stayed with her sister. The woman left her on the side of the street! D: It was so horrible, cause she was just sitting there, waiting, and then she left and was walking through this tunnel after like an hour and she started crying and she was all, "Mommmmyyy!" and it was so SAD! Her little face... D: Then some evil dude picked her up, raped her, and killed her. Then he left her in a dump. Poor baby! :c So her mom went all crazy and killed everyone involved in it. The guy who she wrecked into, her sister, some other girls mom that was abusive that made her kid sad, some legal people, and some detectives, I think. Then she got put into a mental institution, where she killed the man who killed her daughter, since he was put there, too. It was wierd watching the crazy people react to the blood. o.O But kind of funny.
Anyway, GREAT MOVIE. Even though I cry everytime I watch it/think about it. D: My brother laughed. He LAUGHED at a little girl crying and then being picked up by some creepo. I liked that little girl :c
Anyway, Korean movie, so it's subtitles if you ever watch it, even though I prolly just ruined it up there. Eh, nobody I told about it would watch it with me. e.e It is kind of horrible.
SO.
Driving test thing in two days... Scared as heck about that.
I really wanna go somewhere soon x_x But, I don't like organizing things. I just don't. e.x; I'll text people or call people and invite them, but place picking and time picking I don't like. Cause everyone wants to go somewhere different, or meet later or earlier, and it's just... Bleh. So.
The blackberries will be ripe in a few weeks :3 We have tons of blackberry bushes in our backyard. My mom always makes pie with it, even though I hate pie... My dad likes it.
I want a Corgi. D: Or something like that.
I LOVE dogs with short legs, they're just so cute!! Especially when they walk :P It's just adorable. My Longhaired Chihuahua's legs are fairly short and stubbly, but my Pomeranian's legs are quite long D; Not all fat and short and cute. But she's really fuzzy, so it's okay.
That's why I don't like big dogs. They don't fit in your lap, and their legs aren't SHORT. Sure they're cute and somewhat soft, and they're all giant so you can like hang on them and hug them without squeezing their little bodies to death, but they're just not short enough. D:
So, I guess that's it? Now I wanna watch Sweeney Todd.
Ohhh, and I'm looking forward to the next Percy Jackson movie :DD I hope it comes out soon, dunno the release date. I'm sure I'll see commercials for it sometime.
Seeing Eclipse in three days. NOTHING IN THE COMMERCIALS HAPPENED IN THE BOOKS! That dude that got bitten, and his undead army? They never existed! And apparently Bella gets pregnant in this movie? Wth!! She gets pregnant in Breaking Dawn. I guess poor little Eclipse was just too boring for them. D:<
By the way. TEAM. JACOB. CHOOSE JACOB OR WE WILL EAT YOU. We being all of his rabid fans. In the books, I liked Edward best. But in the movies? Edward sucks. Literally. No pun was intended when I typed it, but it kind of turned into one. :P But anyway. What does Edward DO? Nothing! He doesn't make her laugh, or do anything fun with her. He just whisks her away, out of the danger HE created. He's totally useless. But Jacob is all nice and funny and totally hot, and he makes her laugh, and he spends time with her doing things. Edward's obsessed with her "human experiences", but he's not giving her anything! Yeah, prom's important, but what about actually doing things? Like, Jacob fixed the bikes with her, and went to the movies with her once. What did Edward do? Let her play baseball where some freakish dude became obsessed with her and wanted to kill her. Helped throw a party where his brother tried to eat her. He does nothing but get her injured! Guhhh.
So, anyway. o_o THAT'S it. The ending earlier was a false one. >.>; Went on a tangent. Sorry. :P
So, bye. <33 Thanks for reading :P
Wow, I just re-read that, and I'm REALLY random. o_o From driving to going places to blackberries to corgies... Woww. Well, bye now! xP
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