Not much is really happening lately, aside from me being seriously stressed out and getting all anxious/nervous for absolutely no reason. I'll just be sitting in my room, reading or something, and then I get this painfully tight butterfly feeling in my stomach. It's annoying.
And so are people. But I'm not getting into that now.
I'm also kind of bleh because of Valentines day. It's really Single Awareness Day, A.K.A SAD.
I'm the only person I know of [besides one] that hasn't had a real, I-see-you-often relationship. My only relationship? It was with a manipulative jerk who was not at all what I remembered him to be, and who I haven't seen in years.
Fmllll.
Do you ever just want to tell people no, or to f--- off, but can't because you're too nice? That's been happening to me a lot lately. And I do mean a LOT.
I finally got Netflix, which dissapoints me. In order to get any of the good movies you have to pay $2 extra to have them mailed to you, instead of having them instantly online.
I searched for 22 different movies, and they only had one of them online.
But I can watch anime on it, so that's cool.
I'm watching Ouran High Host Club right now, and I must say I'm shocked that Haruhi's dad's a tranny. Like, really shocked. I didn't see that coming at ALL.
I've been having a really hard time sleeping/eating for the past three days, too. I haven't gone to bed any earlier than 5 AM, and I wake up at 6-7 AM. I've also skipped school for three days, and stayed home on my laptop. And I can't make my self eat anything, which is really annoying because I'm hungry, but when I eat something it just feels wrong and it makes my stomach hurt a lot. So I'm a starving, sleep deprived, anxious, antisocial, unloved mess right now. Or atleast I feel like one. But who knows, maybe I'm just delusional.
And I've realized that over the past three days, though I'm constantly online and doing things, I've actually done absolutely nothing. I rotate between checking forums, inboxes, and my email, none of which ever have anything new. Then I'll read a fanfiction or a chapter from a book. Then I start over.
And it's really annoying me.
I have to go to school tomorrow, which I'm not happy about. I know I'm going to be yelled at by Amelia for missing school, and no one else will have noticed. Kim would have, if she was here. But she's at the beach, having fun and ignoring my texts.
I don't know what else to put here, so. Sorry if this was really scattered- I'm in a wierd mood right now.
Bye.
Hullo. :3
I finally got more blonde highlights ;D My hair's all light and fluffy now, too, 'cause I got layers again. AND I HAVE BANGS AGAIN! Yeees :D
And school's actually going okay :] I've been doing my homework [miracle] and my teachers are amazing.
First period I have science with an awesome guy who lets us take a break in the middle of class to throw tennis balls at each other and pops three bags of popcorn for a movie xD He's great. And he actually makes the subject interesting, which is surprising because science is my second least favorite subject.
Second period I have math, which kind of sucks because my teacher's horrible. "I was always self-motivated, so if you're not I don't know how to help you." <-- Wtf, that's kind of the point of teaching. Helping kids learn. You idiot. But there are some perks- Like on homework, if you atleast try a problem and show all of your work, then you get it right no matter how off your answer is. So I have a bunch of 100's for homework grades now, which is awesome :] It's not the same for classwork & quizzes & tests, though. And she lets you turn stuff in after school or before school the next day- So if you forget, you can just do it that night and go in before school tomorrow and check it :] But she's still very jerk-y, and has promised us that we'll have homework every single night. And she hasn't failed to keep that promised.
Third period I have history. I LOVE my teacher xD He's hilarious, and he's really fun. And, like science, he makes history interesting, which is my least favorite subject. The only annoying part is that sometimes you can't tell if he's joking or not. But usually he is :P And sometimes he'll give you his awesome roll-y chair <3
Fourth period I have fashion merchandising, which is AWESOME. I kind of expected to hate it, just because I thought I'd be with a ton of fashion buffs [I am] and that I'd be like, "Uhhh... What?" and everyone else would be all, "OH EM GEE, CHANEL, CALVIN KLEIN, -Insert foreign designers name here-, I'M GONNA TALK ABOUT ALL OF THESE DESIGNERS AND MAKE YOU FEEL STUPID!" <-- Er, bad attempt at a quote. But yeah. They do that, but not as much as I expected. And a lot of the girls are really quiet. But not awkward quiet, just listening quiet. And although we take tons of notes & quizzes, I don't mind because it's actually [i]really[/i] interesting. I dunno, it's just fun. xD
I have second lunch, which is during third period [all of them are]. But the only people I sit with are Andrea and Carrie, 'cause no one else has our lunch :c And I haven't seen Carrie in like, 2-3 years. It's always really quiet. e.o
But yeahh. This was a random update :3
Tata <3
I finally got more blonde highlights ;D My hair's all light and fluffy now, too, 'cause I got layers again. AND I HAVE BANGS AGAIN! Yeees :D
And school's actually going okay :] I've been doing my homework [miracle] and my teachers are amazing.
First period I have science with an awesome guy who lets us take a break in the middle of class to throw tennis balls at each other and pops three bags of popcorn for a movie xD He's great. And he actually makes the subject interesting, which is surprising because science is my second least favorite subject.
Second period I have math, which kind of sucks because my teacher's horrible. "I was always self-motivated, so if you're not I don't know how to help you." <-- Wtf, that's kind of the point of teaching. Helping kids learn. You idiot. But there are some perks- Like on homework, if you atleast try a problem and show all of your work, then you get it right no matter how off your answer is. So I have a bunch of 100's for homework grades now, which is awesome :] It's not the same for classwork & quizzes & tests, though. And she lets you turn stuff in after school or before school the next day- So if you forget, you can just do it that night and go in before school tomorrow and check it :] But she's still very jerk-y, and has promised us that we'll have homework every single night. And she hasn't failed to keep that promised.
Third period I have history. I LOVE my teacher xD He's hilarious, and he's really fun. And, like science, he makes history interesting, which is my least favorite subject. The only annoying part is that sometimes you can't tell if he's joking or not. But usually he is :P And sometimes he'll give you his awesome roll-y chair <3
Fourth period I have fashion merchandising, which is AWESOME. I kind of expected to hate it, just because I thought I'd be with a ton of fashion buffs [I am] and that I'd be like, "Uhhh... What?" and everyone else would be all, "OH EM GEE, CHANEL, CALVIN KLEIN, -Insert foreign designers name here-, I'M GONNA TALK ABOUT ALL OF THESE DESIGNERS AND MAKE YOU FEEL STUPID!" <-- Er, bad attempt at a quote. But yeah. They do that, but not as much as I expected. And a lot of the girls are really quiet. But not awkward quiet, just listening quiet. And although we take tons of notes & quizzes, I don't mind because it's actually [i]really[/i] interesting. I dunno, it's just fun. xD
I have second lunch, which is during third period [all of them are]. But the only people I sit with are Andrea and Carrie, 'cause no one else has our lunch :c And I haven't seen Carrie in like, 2-3 years. It's always really quiet. e.o
But yeahh. This was a random update :3
Tata <3
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