The Mad House

Not much is really happening lately, aside from me being seriously stressed out and getting all anxious/nervous for absolutely no reason. I'll just be sitting in my room, reading or something, and then I get this painfully tight butterfly feeling in my stomach. It's annoying.
And so are people. But I'm not getting into that now.
I'm also kind of bleh because of Valentines day. It's really Single Awareness Day, A.K.A SAD.
I'm the only person I know of [besides one] that hasn't had a real, I-see-you-often relationship. My only relationship? It was with a manipulative jerk who was not at all what I remembered him to be, and who I haven't seen in years.
Fmllll.

Do you ever just want to tell people no, or to f--- off, but can't because you're too nice? That's been happening to me a lot lately. And I do mean a LOT.

I finally got Netflix, which dissapoints me. In order to get any of the good movies you have to pay $2 extra to have them mailed to you, instead of having them instantly online.
I searched for 22 different movies, and they only had one of them online.
But I can watch anime on it, so that's cool.
I'm watching Ouran High Host Club right now, and I must say I'm shocked that Haruhi's dad's a tranny. Like, really shocked. I didn't see that coming at ALL.

I've been having a really hard time sleeping/eating for the past three days, too. I haven't gone to bed any earlier than 5 AM, and I wake up at 6-7 AM. I've also skipped school for three days, and stayed home on my laptop. And I can't make my self eat anything, which is really annoying because I'm hungry, but when I eat something it just feels wrong and it makes my stomach hurt a lot. So I'm a starving, sleep deprived, anxious, antisocial, unloved mess right now. Or atleast I feel like one. But who knows, maybe I'm just delusional.

And I've realized that over the past three days, though I'm constantly online and doing things, I've actually done absolutely nothing. I rotate between checking forums, inboxes, and my email, none of which ever have anything new. Then I'll read a fanfiction or a chapter from a book. Then I start over.
And it's really annoying me.

I have to go to school tomorrow, which I'm not happy about. I know I'm going to be yelled at by Amelia for missing school, and no one else will have noticed. Kim would have, if she was here. But she's at the beach, having fun and ignoring my texts.

I don't know what else to put here, so. Sorry if this was really scattered- I'm in a wierd mood right now.
Bye.