The Mad House

Okay, so. I know I just posted today, but, I’m kind of stressed out now.
The ex has returned. Officially. And we’re back together? I don’t really know how that happened.
I wish he would just dissapear. But… When we talk, things are okay, and I wish he was here with me. I wish I’d never had to leave him. But then when we’re NOT talking, I hate it and I don’t want to talk to him. It’s just so hard to care about him. And then he tells me that he loves me. And I honestly don’t know if I can say the same back. I want to, so badly. It’s like I’m another person when I talk to him.
It's just, I can't hug him. I can't cry on his shoulder, or talk to him out loud. I don't get to hear his voice, or hear him laugh. I don't get to joke around with him. I think if he were here, it would be different.
My friend says that I should either work things out with Vince or find someone new. Problem: Nobody else wants me. Why would they? I whine too much, among other things.
So now I’m being all mopey. We were talking, and he said that I could talk to him about anything that was bugging me. The only thing that’s bugging me is this! That, and that I like another guy, so I feel like I’m cheating on him.
Ughh. Good night, my little blog.